Satisfaction and Happiness

Assalamu 3alikom,

I've been thinking lately about satisfaction and happiness, which one indicates better state and having a happy life :) ??
Of course u will say: manty lessa 2ayla "Happy" life, yb2a happiness ya 3abqareyya :D :D...

Well, most ppl tend to say about them selves that they are satisfied when they are feeling like this: "I'm not happy, life is not fine, and I have nothing to do about it... yallaa, ha3mel a ya3ny... adeena radyeen w 3aysheen wal7amdulillaaah, bas lw kan w lw kan w lw kan…!!!!!!!!" and ppl statrt t-lawleww :D

Well, I disagree with this definition of satisfaction...I believe that Satisfaction is much much greater than happiness, satisfied ppl are more "happy" than happy ppl, satisfaction is bigger, wider, deeper and even warmer.

The deep thinking about Satisfaction and happiness made me have the following conclusions:

• Happiness is a "Result" of a "Cause"... I had a good job, so I’m feeling happy about it.. my friend got engaged so I’m feeling happy about it, Dad bought me my dear little "batata" so I’m Very very very happy about it :D... Unlike satisfaction, actually satisfaction – as I believe- is more likely an attitude, it's smth that is deep inside ur heart that makes you feel good about every thing around u ( good things "AND" bad things).. Y ppl ba2a takes that satisfaction is with bad things and happiness is with the good?!!
  
• Unsatisfied ppl are less likely to feel happy, or let may say that, satisfied ppl get happy from the simplest things in life, they look behind the things and see meanings and feel happy.
  
• Fel Qur2aan u will notice that when Allaah sub7anahu wata3ala talks about the ultimate happiness he sub7anah talks about satisfaction, “wa ridwaanon mina Allahi akbar”, “Radia Allahu 3anhom wa radoo 3anh”.. and the 7adeeth that says that Allaah asks ahl al jannaah: “Hal radeetom?”.. it’s noting about happiness and joy.. if satisfaction was only in hard times, then y are we satisfied fel Janna?!!
  
• Allaah sub7anahu said:”Qul bi-fadli Allahi wara7amatihi fabithalika fal yafra7oo huwa 5ayron memma yajma3oon” .. This verse shows that happiness is indeed “caused” by smth.. and says that: don’t let ur causes of happiness be the things u collect in Dunia (money, family, buildings,…) let ur happiness be out of the mercy given to u by Allaah and the blesses that he sub7anahu wata3ala chose for u (and believe that this meaning takes us to satisfaction in a way or another).

Well, I’m not saying that feeling “Happy” is a bad thing.. Of course not :) .. Feeling happy makes us happy, this is a good thing :).. but feeling satisfied does not mean that u cannot be happy when good things happen, it’s just that u wont feel bad when bad things that happen.

May u all be satisfied about every thing in ur life, and may Allaah be satisfied with u all the way :)
Anyways, this is my opinion, feel free to object :)

Assalamu 3alikom

FCIS'08 1st Reunion

assalamu 3alikom,

I was so Happy today to see my dear dof3a all there together, it was a very lovely day indeed al7amdulillaaah...

bgd, Rabbena y5alleeena lba3d, i deeply love them all, so happy we all met, so happy with the spirit we have, with the kindness we have towards each other, with the smiles we shared today, and the most important thing: the photos we took together ;) and the lovely flowers we all held todaaaay :) ..  marvelous :) :) :)

Proud to be a member of FCIS'08, the dearest community i've ever belonged to :) .. al7amdulillaaah rabbel 3alameeen... fe3laaaaan i love them all and they are a BIG part of my heart :).. it was a great day al7amdulillaaaah

now i know y i'm not happy at work :D

I hope we stay always like that, and even more, and stay in touch forever :)

Love you dof3etyyyy :)

During the year..

assalamu 3alikom,

I read those lines online today and they deeply touched my heart.. so i thought of sharing :) ...

During the year may you have

Enough happiness to keep you sweet.

Enough trials to keep you strong.

Enough sorrow to keep you human.

Enough hope to keep you happy.

Enough failure to keep you humble.

Enough success to keep you eager.

Enough friends to give you comfort.

Enough wealth to meet your needs.

Enough enthusiasm to make you look forward to tomorrow.

Enough determination to make each day better than the 

day before.

Have a nice year, full of whatever you guys wish :)

It's OK :)

assalamu 3alikom,

yaaaah, I really can not believe that i wrote only one post in November, where have I been all this time??!!.. anyways :) here i am!

I donno what shall I say, mmmm, I'll just let it go :)...

Well, things nowadays are really different and strange, a lot of things happened to me last month.. i started work, started serious masters lectures and feeling like i'm starting a totally different life..

All this happened all of a sudden, now i pause and try to understand what happened to me!!

Why am i saying this! well, bcz i feel i have changed.. me is not the me i used to know, i cannot understand how i feel actually..

Last month i was staying alone, having the time to think, talk to Allaah, read Quraan and pray a lot "make Du3aa2" and see the good things in whatever happenes to me.. this is not happening any more :(

Now it's really different, woking and getting busy with new things makes u away even from ur self... many things now are really bothering me, i dont even feel that i have the time to feel bothered!!

To be honest, i really want to cry..

you may find it silly, but here is not the place to mention the things that are bothering me or making me feel bad, but i just need to cry..

i wish to cry :) .. and i pray to Allaaah that i pray "bad3y enny ad3y", feeling apart from Allaah is a bad feeling by the way...

I hope to feel better sooon :) i know i will isAllaaah.. 

nefsy a-solitude awiiiii.. when and where! i donno!!.. isAllaah i'll do it :)

mmmm, donno what to say, i believe that it's normal to feel like this as i'm having a new experience, working, being in a big company, doing a work that i have no experience about, having strict deadlines, working with ppl i donno, having TLs and managers.. all this is really new and makes anybody feel wierd.. it just takes a little time to adapt.. i need to take my time

It's a matter of time w shwayyet sabr :)

isAllaah 5eeer...

Allah in our hearts...

assalamu 3alikom..

It is a very great bless to feel that Allah's love sub7anahu wata3alaa is occupying a big space in your heart.. u love him jalla wa3alaa, see him all the time, think of him, miss him sub7anah, whenever u do anything u wonder: does this satisfy Allaah sub7anahu wata3alaa!, when u forget him u think: oh Allaah plz forgive me :( , and u seek his satisfaction if u are taking any decision and make it the main factor affecting it..

I always knew the following: Allaah is jealous, and doesnt like ur heart to be occupied with any other creature of his.. bcz Allaah sub7anahahu wata3ala has to be ur main concern in life, and u seek "wajh Allaah" and only Allaah in ur whole life..

I used to think of the heart as a big jewelry box containing a smaller jewelry box, containing a smaller box and so on till the smallest box.. and each box holds certain number of ppl besides the smaller box that holds less number of ppl and another smaller box, and so on.. The smaller the box is, the less and dearer the ppl who are inside.. till u reach the smallest box that has no other boxes and has one and only one place..

I used to believe that this smallest place has to be occupied with Allaah and only Allaah 3azza wa jall, cz this is the place for the dearest.. and Allaah has to be the dearest to us if we are good muslims.. and having someone else there, indicates that there is smthing wrong in the Imaan or the heart it self!! and this feeling may really hurt!

Now i'm thinking, no, this may not be accurate.. Allah's space in the heart can not be only the smallest box in it.. All the heart is for him sub7anahu wata3alaa, ALL of it.. and those ppl who occupy places in our hearts, when we love them, we love them for the sake of Allaah.. and there are no conflicts of having one person in the smallest box with having Allaah the dearest, bcz eventually u love this one person for the sake of Allaah, and Allaah sub7anahu wata3ala already has it all :)... so it only hurts when the smallest place is occupied but not for the sake of Allaah.. or if this occupation makes u forget Allaah sub7anahu wata3alaa, or converts to become a fear of loosing this person and not being satified with Allaah's choices whatever they are and not beleiveing that what Allaah chooses for us is always the best.. else there is no conflict as i believe..

it's just an opinion, it can be wrong :) .. but al7amdulillaaaah that anyways and always, Allaah is - indeeeeeed- the dearest and already has it all al7amdulillaaah :)

Love u Allaaah, love u the best :)
al7amdulillaah

نظرية المكواة

assalamu 3alikom...

nazareyyet el makwa is a theory made up by 3ammo Fawzy, my dad's dear friend, he said it to me last summer. This theory is based on a joke, so let me first tell you about it :)

Once there was a single man, who woke up in the morning and had to iron his shirt, he found that his iron isn't working, but he really needed to iron his shirt, so he decided to borrow the iron from the very old lady living 4 or 3 floors upstairs..

he wanted to use the elevator, but it wasn't working, so he had to take the stairs..

All the way up the stairs he was imagining the following: "I'll knock the door, she will open, ofcourse she will be irritated as knocking that early, i'll will ask her to lend me the iron, and she says: every time i lend u the iron u return it back with a defect. He replies: I do that!! i do nothing to your iron, as i take it i return it.. she says: no, i dont want to give you my iron!. He says: please i have to go to work now, i'm in a hurry, you will lose nothing.. She says: you had to take care of your iron, you are a careless person.. Then he really gets angery and they both start yelling!!".. He was imagining this conversation all the way up stairs till he reached her door and already rang the bell.. She opens, then he yells: 5alaaas, 5alaaaaaas, ANA MESH 3AYEZ MN WESHIK 7AGAA!!.. leaving the old lady in a shock not understanig why this crazy man acted like that!!

3ammo fozfoz told me: Noha, el makwaa de bteb2a fe dma3'ik enty bas, w maynfa3sh t3amly el nas 3ala asas-ha, wogood el makwaa fe dma3'ik mesh haylsa3 7add 3'eerik, w lw haylsa3 7add, haylsa3ik enty el awwel.. rayya7y dma3'ik w etfy el makwaa, dema3'ik mesh na2sa 7arr el gaww 7arr lwa7do, enty mesh hatdorry 3'eer nafsik.. w 3amly el naas as you are, without expecting ayy 7aga, you will be happy and ppl will love you.. even if they have any "makawyy" towards you, they will automatically be switched off!!.. what do you expect from two irons heated and facing each other but more and more heat and "aflaa" fel kahrabaa, w mashakel wala leeha ayy lazma wala wogood asasaaan 5alesss!!!.. matsheleesh el sellem bel3ard ya Noha!

//and isAllaah i'll talk about nazareyyet el sellem in the coming posts isAllaaah.

Well, he is right.. ppl need to think b4 reacting or even acting!, we all have different backgrounds, situations ,  emotions and experience that formats our attitude, paradigm and behaviour. People know nothing about it, even if they do, they have their own prespective and act based on it.. never assume that they will react after thinking an trying to understand All the circumistances that made u behave like that!! well, believe it or not, They Wont!, they are not you and they are not wearing the same shoes you are wearing, so excuse them and have patience..

Sometimes el makwaa btetla3 fag2a, and you just rush and act based on it, te3mel a ba2a fel 3'abaa2 lamma yo7kom wel makwaa lamma teshta3'aal wel kahraba lamma te3mel 2aflaa!!:D, 

And remember you may lose a family member, a friend, a dear person or anyone due a stupid makwaa!! and you really dont want this... dont hurt your self nor the dear people you have!

Yes, remembering this is somewhat difficult, but atleast try, admit you are mistaken and apologise, and they will probably forgive you and this will make a difference!

Salaaam

My Lovely Grandmaa :)

assalamu 3alikom,

about a week ago i went to visit my grandma who was returning to Kuwait after visiting Egypt. My grandma, or as i call her "Neena", is a veryyyy sweeeet person, the old people are really blessed and their words are full of wisdom.Neena was born in 1920, so you can imagine how wise she is!! :D

I told Neena:" Neena, pray for me, i'm looking for a job", she said:"rabbena ykremik w teb2y ra2eeset gomhooreyyaa" ... lol.. i told her: "la ya Neena ana mesh 3ayza ab2a ra2eeset gomhoreyya :D", she said: "w malo lamma teb2y ra2eeset gamhoreyyaa, a el mane3!!!" :D :D
Then she said: "ya 7elwa, el 5eer salaalem, w 2awwel sellma feeh isAllah hateb2a el sho3'l".. she meant that once i work rabbena hayfta7 3alayya isAllaaah :)

and she also said:"bokra el shams hatetla2 w bokra el zar3 haykbar w bokraa el 5eeer keteeer :)", those words deeply touched my heart :).. she told me that i always have to be optimistic, and that every body has good and bad phases in their life, and we always have to remember the good ones to keep our spirit :)
She said: "baraheem maat, ha3ood az3al wa2ool da baraheem mesh mawgood w aa3eesh 7azeena!!, mana etbasatt ma3aah el 7amdulillaaah, w l7add delwa2ty fakra enno kan bytbeset menny w fakra el ayyaam el gameela w mabsoota al7amdulillaah".. baraheem da is my grandfather, Ibrahim but she calls him baraheem :D, i never had the chance to see him cz he died -ra7matu Allaah 3aleeh- in the 70's.. i was shocked mn kalaam neeena, she till now remembers my grandfather and misses him as if they are newly married :)..

i also found a paper in her bag saying:"ana al7amdulillaah dayman 7assaah enn baraket baraheeem 7awalayyaa b-istemraar, rabbena yer7amuh w y7sen eleeeh".. i was speechless!

when ever we visit Neena, we ask her: "Neena enty mabsootaa??", she says: "tab3an al7amdulillaah, and sings : ahly w a7baby 7awalayya, far7ana bergoo3ak leyya, el yoom gleeby sa3eed, el yoom gleeby sa3eeed"
.. and we say: el yooom gleeby sa3eeed :D..

rabbena yddeeha el se77a ya raabb.. last time i visited her she said:"ana el naharda rabbena zaad fe 3omry 5 seneen 3ashan zortoony"..

Neena dreams of travelling to the moon and planting some tomatos and mint their she says ahamm 7aga enn el wa7ed y5ally feeh 7ayaah 7awaleeh, and she says that if there are alians in the moon, she wants to teach them how to plant those seeds :D.. and she talks seriously btw :)

Neena also wants to finish her study, cz she left school fel ibteda2yyaa, but she says that the problem that her eyes are not that well, and she forgets a lot! but she really wants it!!

i hope i am as half as Neena is in her Very +ve attitude in life, rabbena y5allehalna ya raaab :)

salaaam

A whole new life..

assalamu 3alikom,

I think that not much people think of daramtically changing their life and to have a whole new life, they fear having the risk, and they dont garuntee the outcomes, so they prefer staying as they are and keep what they think is good for them in hand, 3asfooron fel yadd ya3ny.

Taking such decisions is a very brave step and needs a lot of guts, and strong belief that el 5eer kolloh is b-yadi Allaah sub7anahu wata3ala :)
Starting a whole new life can be about only renewing your intentions, changing your attitude towards things, re-order your priorities and quiting somethings you were or loved or wanted.. i mean it doesnt have to be a daramatic change in your career or the city you live in, etc...

Taking such a decision is sometimes painful, very painful, it's hard for u to expect what might come, what will happen next, and wether these things will satisfy u or have a big value in our hearts or not, yet, we hope and tell Allaaah that we trust him, and we wait and see the good that will come isAllaah.

Patience is a big factor in this whole issue, w mogahdet el nafs, yes there is pain and a lot of fear that can reach horror, but Allaah wants to see how we will react, if we will "nory Allaah mn anfosina 5ayran" or not, and how we will stick to our intentions and keep on putting all our trust in Allaah sub7anahu wata3ala, and natawakkal 3aleeh w nasta3een beeh sub7anahu wata3ala :)

rabbena ysabbarna gamee3an 3ind al balaa2, w yhawwen 3aleenaaa, w yo2nesnaa beeeh.. w yg3alna mn el mottaqeeeen fel serr wal 3alaan

Allahumma ameen

The Nasty me!!

assalamu 3alikom,

First i want u to know that "me" in the title does not refer to me myself, but it is smthn that me, u and all of us may tell ourselves.
It is a great moment when you say: "Oh my God, How nasty i am!!". Am i saying "great"?!!, oh yes! :).. because it's when u see how small u are and how great Allah is, how merciful, generous, and kind.

Let me tell u a little story. Before this Ramdan, i decided to make Tawba, as most of you did, I wrote a Tawba list, listed the bad things i wanted to quit and decided -by Allah's well- not to do any of them again.
I was also blessed by spending Ramadan in UAE, so i took this as a chance to change and -also- wrote a list of intentions that i wanted to have in that visit, wanted Allaah to bless me with, and things i wanted Allaah to help me with.
Ofcourse through Ramdan and after the 5atma I used to read both of them espicially my Intentions list, as i wrote them in a form of du3aa3, i was asking Allaah for them. And my Tawba list, b4 Ramdan ended, I thought of writing a du3a2 next of each item to help myself quitting them by Allaah's help and du3aa2.

Yesterday, I remembered my lists, read them to evaluate, how far I achieved and really changed..
Here comes the nasty me..

I fisrt read my Tawba list, and saw that i "actually" quited only about 40% of the list..
Then i read my Intentions list, it was in a form of prayers as i mentioned b4, and found that, Allaah sub7anaahu wata3ala is really the greatest!, almost 70% of the listed items already came true!! and i can see now some more are on their way to come true!

I noticed that the things I quitted in my Tawba list, are the things that I listed a prayer next to them or already asked Allaah in my intentions list to help me through!
I remembered the verse : ثم تاب عليهم ليتوبوا إن الله هو التواب الرحيم
Al7amdulillaaah indeed, thanking is never enough!!
Allaah always gives us, and see how we are treating him! Nasty we are!

إنى والإنس والجن في نبأ عظيم، أخلُق ويُعبد غيري، أرزق ويشكر سواي، خيري إلى العباد نازل وشرهم إليّ صاعد، أتودد إليهم بالنعم وأنا الغني عنهم، ويتبغضون إليّ بالمعاصي وهم أفقر ما يكونون إليّ، أهل ذكري أهل مجالستي، من أراد أن يجالسني فليذكرني، أهل طاعتي أهل محبتي، أهل معصيتي لا أُقنِّطهم من رحمتي، إن تابوا إليّ فأنا حبيبهم، وإن أبوا فأنا طبيبهم، أبتليهم بالمصائب لأطهرهم من المعايب، من أتاني منهم تائباً تلقيته من بعيد، ومن أعرض عني ناديته من قريب، أقول له: أين تذهب ألك رب سواي؟ الحسنة عندي بعشرة أمثالها وأزيد، والسيئة عندي بمثلها وأعفو، وعزتي وجلالي لو استغفروني منها لغفرتها لهم

For Allaah's sake!, i really donno how am I ever going to thank Allaah for this Karam!! I donno how am I gonna meet him in the day of judgement with this nasty me!! el wa7ed maksooooof mn nafsoo awiiiiiii :(

May Allaah forgive all of us, Allahumma i3'fir taqseerana... Fe3lan: وما قدروا الله حق قدره !!!

w rabbena yg3alko mn el tayyebeeen :)

Salaaam

To Remember Me..

The day will come when my body will lie upon a white sheet neatly tucked under four cornors of a mattress located in a hospital busily occupied with the living and dying.

At a certain moment a doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function and that, for all intents and purposes, my life has stopped.
When that happens, do not attempt to instill artificial life into my body by the use of a machine. And dont call this my deathbed. Let it be called the Bed of Life, and let my body be taken from it to help others lead fuller lives.
Give my sight to the man who has never seen the sun rise, a baby's face or love in the eyes of a woman. Give my heart to a person whose own heart has caused nothing but endless days of pain.
Give my blood to the teenager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he might live to see his grandchildren play.
Give my kidneys to one who depends on a machine to exist from week to week.
Take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to make a crippled child walk.

Explore every corner of my brain. Take my cells, if necessary, and let them grow so that, someday, a speechless boy will shout at the crack of a bat and a deaf girl will hear the sound of rain against her window.
Burn what is left of me and scatter the ashes to the winds to help the flowers grow.

If you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weaknesses and all prejudice against my fellow man.

If, by chance, you wish to remember me, do it with a kind deed or word to someone who needs you. If you do all I have asked, I will live forever.

-by Robert N. Test

He's no good for you!

assalamu 3alikom...

There are some essintial things that u need to find in ur life partner, they may not be that big, yet they are critical and lacking them will make u live the worst life ever!
answering any of the following with a no, makes me tell u to reconsider:


1) Does he care?

and when i say "care" i mean cares for u, not for him... does he do the things that make u happy not only the things that make him happy??, does he "seek" ur happiness?, does he remember ur issues and cares to ask about them?, or does he only talk about things that are common interest, and when u start talking u find that the topic is closed in a way or another!!
i know some ppl who care only for themselves and seem to be caring for others, they have long talks with u, u may think that they like talking to u, but actually they like "talking"!.. with a "u" in the phrase or no "u", both are equal.
they listen to u, which seems as care, but they listen not bcz they want to listen to u, but bcz they like to know what ppl think, whether ppl are replaced in the phrase with u or any others, it's the same too!
and let me tell u this: care is the simplest form of love, no care no love... u may marry sm1 who doesnt "love" u, but u cant marry sm1 who doesnt atleast "care" about u!

2) Does he feel u?

can he see ur inner feelings, knows from ur face or eyes that u are happy now or not, need him or not, need to hear smth from him??.. does he feel ur wordless reactions? knows when u r happy, sad, irritated, satisfied or not??.. or does he just go on talking if he likes it and never notices how u deeply feel
bcz sometime, and girls do this a lot, u may be deeply hurted inside, sad or having a deep sorrow, and whether u know it or not, u need some passion.. but u keep smiling infront of others, caring, giving, pretending as there is nthn... i believe if cant read this, then smth is wrong!

3) Does he understand?

understand how u think, y u did that or doing this?, if u r trying to say smth in an indirect way, does he get it?

when u say, for example, that the "sea" is blue, deas he understand that the sea is "blue"??... i mean is he on the same line u r on?!

this also includes understanding ur needs and giving u space, making u feel that u are u, not just sm1 who only serves him and have to obey him all the time and that's it!.. well, i believe that girls must "obey"their husbands, but some men use this and take it as a granted right and see them selves as the masters and u r there only to obey, but "u" as u! no u dont exist... and they forget that when they command they need to be loving, tender, and soft and appreciate ur abilites and emotions

4) Does he remember?

this is a Big indicator, u may for example tell him that u have been to alex, like the blue color, or love indian food, any thing, and u come and talk to him about any of the issues, then he doesnt know! u tell him i told u b4 that: "....", ...... and he says : "really!!! i dont remember!"

well, i believe that if he cares he will remember, espcally the well known things about u, the things that distingush u frm others, or the things that are main events in ur life... not remembering such things isa big indicator of not caring.. and ppl who love, believe me, remember every single little details about those they love

Finally, never marry a "3'abi" person, and saying 3'abi i dont mean that he is not smart or smth, but there are some actions and reacttions and attitudes are are not described except with the word "3'abaa2".. cz this man eventually will drive u crazy.. trust me!

There may be a lot more quetions to ask ur self, but those what i have in mind now, yet i think they are major and critical but not many ppl take them into consideration!

see u soon isAllaah :)

salaaaam

When u think of them..

السلام عليكم

بيحصل إن حد يخطر على بالك مرة وحدة وتفتكره بدون أي سبب؟

أو يخطر على بالك وتقول ياااااه أنا بالي كتير أوي مكلمتوش، فيينه؟

أو تفتكر حد وتحس إنو وحشك؟

أو تفكر في حد و ييجي في بالك بس مش أكتر وتحس إنو بقى مش موجود، وتحس بفرق ولو بسيط؟؟؟

كل إلي عايزة اقوله إنهاردة إن أول مييجي حد في بالك كلمه على طول... إسأل عليه، أكيد إنت كمان جيت في باله ونفسه يسمع صوتك

أول مايوحشك حد إسأل عليه، أكيد إنت كمان وحشه أوي بس معرفش يكلمك

أول ماتفتكر حد إنه مرة قالك حاجة أو نصحك بحاجة أومجرد جه في بالك، إبعتلو ولو حتى ميل سلم عليه، أكيد هو نفسه يطمن عليك ويعرف أخبارك بس ما حاولش يكللمك لسبب ما

أول ما ينط في بالك حد كلمه على طول أو بالميل

do it instantly

هتلاقي الحد بيقولك أول سطر فالميل أو أول كلمة فالمكالمة: ياااااه، كنت بفكر فيك ، سبحان الله!!..... هتحس إحساس حلو أوي، وتفرح أوي انك إنت إلي بادرت، وتحس ان الشخص د كان فعلاً وحشك أو إنت فعلا ممتن ليه

في أمان الله (:

(3) في رعاية الله

assalamu 3alikom..

I'm just going on telling u stuff that i feel that Allaah is tellig me: "I'm here, next to you.. dont worry"..

Now,i'm in UAE, alone with my father, and i'm seeking a job, applied almost every where online, but no one replied..
i'm here alone.. my father is with me yes, but i didnt contact any of my friends, didnt talk to them, not seeing anyone, not going anywhere except for the hospital and related places... i dont watch TV at ALL, i dont talk on phone, nthn...... just me, dad and the house work..
Al7amdulillaaah, i'm not complaining at all, i'm just giving u a picture in order to let u see what i'll say as i saw it..
Then one day, i was in the car with dady, then i thought like: "y dont i pray that i work here!", cz i only say ya rabb lw feeh 5eer, and i pray isti5ara for working here... but i never said: "ya rabb ashta3'al henaa".. i wondered y!.. maybe i just want to be satisfied, so i'm not asking Allaah for a particular thing, and that way i'm totally leaving it for the isti5ara result and Allaah's well..
but that day i thought, i will say it as: ya rabb ashta3'al hena, ya rabb 2ala2y sho3'l hena.. and i thought that this doesnot contradict with my belief that Allaah will do me the best wether in Egypt or UAE..

The next day, i recieved a phone call on my mobile. Usually the numbers that call me here are from egypt, but this one was from UAE.. and i didnt give any of my UAE friends my number, i didnt tell them i'm here till now.. even when i apply online for a job, i write my dad's number not mine... i was wondering who could this be!

It was Rabab, a friend of mine from the clg, the same department of mine too, she came to UAE, her family is here, and she is looking for a job too!.. i never ever expevted such a call at all!!
Rabab spoke about working together, she mentioned that her sister can contact some ppl and look for a job for both of us not only her, we agreed on meeting soon and hoped we get the chance to work to gether...
I cant tell u how happy i was with that phone call..
1) a friend is there!! a nice one too.. sm1 i can talk to and say rubbish :P, away of my daily activities i do here.
2) Rabab lives two blocks away from mine!
3) Allaah sent me Rabab to tell me: I'm here, u r not alone, i feel u and i sent u some one to make u smile :)... Noha, i know u searched for a job a lot, i know that u want to work here, and u did all what u can do, leave it to me, i can get u a job in another way, a way that u never thought of!! Rabab's sister!.. ya Allaaaah, i really never expected that.. i thought of it the traditional way, i apply online and one of the companies reply to me and here i go!.. sub7ana Allaaah

u know, no matter how this will end like, whether Rabab's sister finds me a job or not, whether i stay here or go back to Egypt, i'm really satisfied, pleased with Allaah and love him soooo much..
I loved the way he told me: i'm here ya Noha, dont worry like that!... i really felt that he - sub7anahu wata3ala- "by-tabtab 3alayyaa" and his "tabtaba" is full of love, compassion, mercy and tenderness..

I had the same feeling i told u about, i felt so happy, wanted to kiss the ground and hug anything around.. i made sujood shokr and thanked Allaah for making me feel that i'm not alone!
and as i told dad, even if i didnt have a job here, it's very enough for me that Allah makes me feel that i'm never alone, and will let me leave, if i left, will all the satisfaction that i may ever want..
al7amdulillaaaahi rabbel 3alameeen

salaaaaaam

Walk to that door!

assalamu 3alikom

as we are now almost in "Al 3ash al awa5er" of Ramadan, i thought of sharing this with u, a nice meaning i learnt from brother Ahmad in one of the Green Muslims sessions, rabbena y3ezzo ya rabb..

let's assume now that we are sittng in a room, and there is a closed door.. and i tell u: "walk to that door", then what will u do??

imagine ur self, see it, and see what will u do!

u will most probably get up, walk to the door, then walk back to me saying: "i did!"..

actually u didnt!.. cz there is a Q, y did i ask u to walk to that door in the first place!!!, didnt u think of that!.. i wanted u to walk to the door, open it, and take a treasure that is behind the door.. and all u did was that u did an effort, it could be a big one, but in vain!

The same exactly applies on worshipping Allaah.. Allaah tells us to pray, and we "perform" prayer 5 times daily, but we just dont think of the treasure behind the prayer, the great Thawab that we can get if we just brought up some intentions.. we perform actions, do effort, and finish the prayer without any 5oshoo3, we just walk to the door and gome back withou even trying to open it!
Same applies for reading Qur2aan - no 5oshoo3, tadabbor, 3ezaa and tafakkor, nthn- and for Fasting -Allah says : fahuwa lee wa2ana ajzy bih- we walk to the door and we dont think of the reason why Allaah - sub7anahu wata3aala- tld us to do it, and Ramadan is just over and the benefit we got is a big Zero!

b4 the "al 3ashr al wa5aer" think of the doors that u can walk to, think y will u walk to them, think of the treasure behind them, and open them and get the treasue.. be a winner - 2ola2ika hom al fa2izooon-...

just a little thing: the beauty of Islam also appears in that the treasure u will get is what u thought u will get.. u can give some one a glass of water and take only one 7asanaa, or give him the same glass and take millions of 7asanaat, depending of the "neyyaat" u had when handing him the glass..

Happy Last days of Ramadan :)
Salaaam

(2) في رعاية الله

welcome again :)
now i'm going on telling u how i feel "re3ayat" Allaah, or ma3eyyat Allaah, ad took my trip to KSA as an example.. cz it happens a lot wal7amdulillaah :)

In my six hours transit i stayed at the airport mousque, where a six years old Bangaly girl "Afraa" asked me what's my name, then we became friends, me, her and her little sister "Arwa".. they are Muslims and live in London.. for some time, this girl kept talking about islam and her teacher and prohet Muhammad pbuh and Mousa pbuh and i thought like: "al7amdulillaah that Allaah sent me sm1 to have a conversation of which i can gain 7asanaat, i really dont know what were i going to do in those six hours".. then she left me to sleep a bit, i had a headache.. i didnt feel like eating the snacks i got with me, i was all alone, in a place that i dont know.. u just dont feel like eating, i didnt even feel like asking about the transit free meals... so, i tried to sleep. after some minutes i woke up on Afraa's voice saying:"Noha, wake up, i brought u food :)" ... i was : :, speachless, i cant describe how i felt then, looking at this tiny little girl, carrying the tray, heading towards me, and saying i brought u food!, oh Allaah, i felt sub7ana Allaaah, see in whom he sent me my rezq... i was thrilled in that moment, i kept thanking her a lot, and asked: how much did u pay for that?, she said it's free.. and she left me to eat.. i was hungry, didnt want to eat but hungry, i ate not cz i wanted to eat, but bcz i felt it's a way of thanking Allaah for it, is to take what he sent to me "min 3'ayri 7awlin lee wala qowwah".. at the moment i started eating, tears dropped from my eyes, i felt the feeling i spoke previously about, i felt really like crying, i made sujoud shokr, and ate with eyes full of tears, with the altimate gratitude to Allaah for this transit experience :)


TBC :)
salaam for now

في رعاية الله

assalamu 3alikom,

"Ma3eyyat Allaah", yaaaaaaaaaah, how touching!, it's a priceless feeling when u feel that Allaah is taking care of u, protecting u, and sending ppl and making causes just to take care of u..

It makes me feel sooo happy for a short while, then suddenly a strong desire to cry, kiss the ground, hug anything around me, and tell Allaaah: "yaaah ya rabby, ana ba7ebbaak awii"..

they are simple things, very simple, but it is how u see them, u may see them as an original event or result for smth, or see that Allaah made all the surroundings happen only to make these little things for u..
I had a transit in KSA for 9 hours!!, that was a very ling time, my family took me to "Metro" b4 heading to the airport and kept convicing me to buy some snacks to eat in KSA, i wasnt that keen about it..
My flight took off from Egypt 3 hours late than it's scheduled time, i thought: "al7amdulillaah, waiting in my country in much better than waiting in a place i donno, now my transit became 6 hours, thank u Allaah"..
My seat wasnt a window seat, i love window seats.. but i said 5eer ya3ny, al7amdulillaah, then sm1 came and said: "excuse me madam can u sit over there cz there is a family who want to sit together?" and over there was a window seat :)

enough for today :)

see u in part two,
fe Aman Allaah :)

(2) مصر في عيون سعودية

assalamu 3alikom,

I didnt wrote this sooner, sorry for that..

anyways, let me remind u that i had an indirect flight and went to KSA via the Saudi airlines..

In the plane, i sat next to a "talkative" SAudi wonam, who was in Egypt visiting her sister and applying for her son in on of the Egyptian private unversities..

I asked her y does her sister live in Egypt, she is Saudi and married to a Saudi man, the woman said that her sister's husband preferes egypt, and she commented on that saying : "Although he is so quite, he like only to stay at home, he doesnt like doing out to casinos, disco, movies, or any other things that are in egypt, sub7ana Allaah"... she is surprised how come he is that quite and like Egypt although all of what she mentioned.. ya salaaaam!!! she made me feel that Egyptian ppl walk all the time singing, watching movies, go no where but to casinos and disco bars.. give me a break!!! i never went to a disco b4!!!!!!

this is the bad image our serials and mvies give to the outside world about us! thnx to media!!

let's look at the bright side:
- i asked her y did u get ur son to study in Egypt?!, she said he wants a speciality that is not available in KSA, and Egypt is well known of it's "education".. here i wanted to laugh :D
and she also mentioned that Cairo university is well known there, and they think it's smth... i asked her about Ain Shams she said: "yes, that too" :P

- she said: "but the number of veiled and scarfed women really surprised me, i was here in Egypt 15 years ago and almost all the girls werent covering their hair, and almost all of them wore mini jupes and short dresses, i am really surprised with their clothing too, it's clear that there is a "sa7wa deneyya" in the country ", i said yes :)

that's it :)
that's how ppl see us, as a stupid nation, that will never ever progress due to our disorder and selfishness, and a religouse one!!!... two opposits, Ironic!

see u soon :)
salaaaaaaaam

What i really really really want

assalamu 3alikom,

i dont exactly remember this, but i think i heard that u need to ask ur self: "what do i really really really want?", it's a way to know ur deepest desires.
well, u may see this strange, but there are a lot of ppl who dont know what they really want, and this question sometimes helps, the 3 "really" makes u think or seek deeply inside or among ur desires.

what i really really really wanted were two things, and they were somewhat contradicting.. i didnt think i could have them both cz having one of them decreases the chances of having the other.
the first, that i really really really wanted, and dreamed of having, and wanted so badly , i now just cant get anymore, i already lost it forever, and it really hurts.. but al7amdulillaaah 3ala kolli 7aal..

now, i sometimes think that Allaah made me lose the first so that he will give me the second, so that i focus more on the second one and have better chances of having it, who knows!!
but i sometimes see that the chances of having the second are degrading too, i feel like i'm losing it too.. am i gonna have it?! Allahu a3lam..

not having the second makes me remeber the firt and the pain of losing it, well, i cant say "losing" as i didnt have it in the first place, but i just didnt have it :)

al7amdulillah qaddara Allahu wama shaa2a fa3al, i believe it wasnt mine in the 1st place, Allaah didnt want it for me, but what about the second??..

as these 2 things are what i really really really wanted, i cant imagine my self not having the second either, i ask Allaah to give it to me if it was the 5eer, and make me satisfied if it wasnt mine..

this was 7abbet fadfada.. pray for me, may Allaah satisfay me in all cases ya rabb

مصر في عيون سعودية

assalamu 3alikom,

I had an indirect flight to UAE, transit in KSA "Riyaad", so i travelled from Cairo on the Saudi airlines to Riyaad for the first time in my life..
The airport was soooo crowded, my plane was taking off at 1:35 A.M so i went to the airport at 11:00 P.M. and ofcourse it was the "New" airport.. i have been to about 6 or 5 airports, abd this "New" airport is the worst ever, it's like puplic toilets, very very ugly and really bad, i hate it.. i just wonder, how does the Egyption government or whatever make such a horrible place for tourists and foriegn travellers while leaving the "old"-better- airport for Egypt air travellers!!!! i ralley cant describe how nasty the "new" airport is if u havent seen it :S

Anyways, i stood in the chech-in line from 11:15 till 1:20 or sumting.. Check in only! of course i witnessed LOTS of fightes and yelling, very bad attitudes, disorder, randomness, worse than any line u ever stood in.
ofcourse a lot of Saudi ppl was there, and they were never treaded like that.. all were not pleased and not satisfied.. and of the comments i heard, i'm listing some:
- My First time to see an Embarrassed Egyptian, the never feel shy .. boga7a ya3ny/* a Saudi wonam saw an Egyption man embarrased*/
- Egyptian ppl will never be civilized, they will always stay as they are
- /* yelling at the check in guy*/ Tell me y we didnt finish till now while all egyptians are done!! bcz we stay in a line and we are organised...Toz fe Masr, Toz fe Masr
-/* yelling too*/ y are u treating us like this, y!!!, the money is our money and the airlines are our are lines, damn u .. and she mentioned smth about that we dont deserve what kning Abdel Aziz did for us in egypt.. any ideas what was that ?!!! i wanna know
- /*to a porter*/ u only do things for money, i have to pay u to get my things done, how nasty.. egyptians will never be good workers

and much more..
telling the truth, i felt shame... not only the airport looks like an old WC, but ppl are behaving really bad, no manners nothing.. egyption men exceed Saudi women in the line to get there first and put there bags and yell... really bad...

it's a moral issue, a whole culture that needs to be fixed, ppl need to be raised all over again and know how to treat ppl, cz we realy dont know..

wel mota5llef mota5allef 3ala ra2y el so3odeyyeen!
7asafah!!

wait for part two

salaaam

What hurts most!

in our lives, we get through alot of hard situations, tough days, and bad times.. and it happenes that we feel like: "This really Hurts!"... and u may feel that u want to cry, or even, u just find ur self crying, and wishing this never happened to u!
I have been through a lot too, and felt like that a lot, but what really hurted and hurt me most is being accused of smthn that i have never done or will do, and finding my slef treated based on unfair conclusions that others made...

When sm1 judges ur intentions, or decides with theirselves that ur neyya was a bad thing, and start treating u as the bad person with the bad intentions... or when they conclude that u "are" sm1, and of course a bad one, and believe that u are that person and also treat u based on that asuumption, and it even goes to the extent that they tell u : "u are......... "and they dont accept any excuses... then u are nothn but SHOCKED !!!, cz u never ever want or wish or even like doing what they say u do... and u just stay still, unable either to speak nor defend ur self, and feeel the deepest wound in ur heart.. It hurts even more when those ppl are the closest to u, it makes it a HUGE pain!

It's unfair, and hurting and shocking, and u keep wondering: "Y!!!!!", and the only thing u have is to ask Allaah: يا ربي دافع عني, إن لم يكن بك علي غضب فلا أبالي
and pray that one day they'll know the truth, feel sorry for the pain they caused to u, and know that u were never the person they thought u are...

ya rabb ... maybe oneday.. who knows!! :)

It's Time to Analyze

assalamu 3alikom,

we all know there are no shayateen in Ramadaan, and that all the bad deeds that we see in Ramadan are from the "Nafs", as there is no what is known as "waswasa".

Brother Ahmad gave a simple example: let's say that whenever u meet me -for example- u punch my stomach, then i throw up, again u meet me, punch my stomach and i throw up , every time!..

then it happens that i don't meet u for a long while, but i keep throwing up every day.. now there must be smth wrong "inside" my body that causes it, cz i no longer meet u, this means that i can not blame u anymore for throwing up.. so i better fix my own inside problem.

the same thing in Ramadan.. in Ramadan, every sin u do, each bad deed is because of u and only u, because shitaan is not there, and u r the only one to be blamed for whatever u do..

so it's time for u to prepare ur self a list with all the sins u do, every thing u want to quit, and make ramadan ur start.. also to analyze ur behaviour, and see, what was due to u and what was bcz of the Shitaan, and analyze, and admitt ur mistakes and figure out how to fix them or make Tawba.. and start in action..

وآخرون اعترفوا بذنوبهم خلطوا عملا صالحا وآخر سيئا عسى الله أن يتوب عليهم إن الله غفور رحيم

Allaah bless u All, wish u a fruitfull analysis :)

Salaaaaam

Orange Juice

I just came home from the Second "Green Muslims" meeting with brother Ahmad, Allaah bless them all...

the talk today was about "Learning", and i'll cover the session isAllaah soon in coming posts. but i want to mention now the "Orange Juice" story :)

brother Ahmad was talking about working on ur character and he said a very nice thing: we have two looks, the physical one, that every body sees, and the inner look, that is the person inside us.. and that each person inside each of us has a different look than the physical look, based on the charactaristics of that inner person..

he asked us to close our eyes for seconds, and imagine what our inner person looks like!... now what do u see, is it a beautiful creature, on an ugly one?.. this depeds on ur heart and manner :)

and that this inner person shows clearly when pressure comes. if u wanna know how does ur inner person look like, just watch ur self when u are under pressure, or in other words, in an Ibtilaa2...

then he asked a question, he said though it may sound silly, trivial or worthless, but it had a major and a huge effect on his personality and really changed alot of him.. now you think of an answer to it..

"what comes out when u sqeeze an orange??" .. yes think.. what comes out when u sqeeze an orange!!! Got it!!

The squeezing process is the pressure u go through, and of course, u are the orange, and ur inside look or character is the orange juice that come out of u...

some times Allah puts u in an Ibtilaa2 to squeese u and show u things deep inside u, that u woud never see, to let u dig deep inside, and clean ur heart corners and wash them out..

it doesnt make any sence that when u have a bad day, and yell at ppl around u bcz u have been though alot that day, then u come and say: sorry i acted like that, i have been through a lot today... and u start mentioning the "Outside" effects that happened to u to justify y ur orange juice was that black..
but it makes no sence...how come u blame outside things for things that came out of u, from ur "inside"... Only blame the orange!!

so always watch ur orange juice, and make sure that u need the orange juice to be as nice as ur orange shell looks from outside, not to shock ppl of what came out of it, and remember that the Orange juice is what really matters!
إن الله لا ينظر إلى أجسادكم ولا إلى صوركم ولكن ينظر إلى قلوبكم

قد سألت البلاء

when u have a very heavy burder on ur heart, all u ask Allaah for is some Patience, not to suffer of what is tiring ur brain, making u worried all the time and having those big holes in ur heart.

talking about my self i usually ask Allaah for patience, and i increase this Do3aa2 in bad times, and ask ppl i know to pray for me and ask Allah to give me patience..


Today, talking to a dear wise friend, she said: Dont ask Allaah for patience!, i said: y!!!, she said: asking to be patient on what!, it's like u ask Allaah for ibtilaa2...


for me, it was the firt time to here about this, it turned out to be a 7adeeth:
مر النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم برجل وهو يقول اللهم إني أسألك الصبر فقال‏:‏ قد سألت البلاء فسل الله العافية قال‏:‏ ومر برجل يقول اللهم إني أسألك تمام النعمة قال‏:‏ يا ابن آدم أتدري ما تمام النعمة قال‏:‏ دعوة دعوت بها أرجو بها الخير قال‏:‏ فإن تمام النعمة فوز من النار ودخول الجنة

i found it after googling.. she didn't mention it in the call, i thought it was her opinion..


but the major thing i was thinking about is: yaah, does this mean that prophet Muhammad, PBUH, never asked Allaah for patience?!!!! never ever??!!!
i googled that too, and i was surprised that the answer was yes, except for this 7adeeth:

اللهم إني أسألك الصبر عند القضاء، و منازل الشهداء، وعيش السعداء، والنصر على الأعداء، ومرافقة الأنبياء،

plz notice that Prophet Muhammad asked Allah for patience "Conditinally", only in the case that Allaah "qaddar el balaa2" and it happened.. عند القضاء!

I also searched in the Holy Qur2an for "صبر" and noticed that "Sabr" is situation dependent, and when Allaah commands us of being patient, it's a command of having the "attitude" of being patient.. so it is something YOU do, not smthing u ask Allaah to give u..

i thought, like what, ya3ny a smthing i do, an attitude!!, and i had this example in mind, i hope it makes it clear:
when u want to reach somewhere by ur car, the clg for example, u ask Allaah by saying : ya rabb awsal el kolleyyaa, ya rabb i make it there masalan... u never say : ya rabb erzo2ny enny a3raf asoo2 l7add el kolleyyaa!!!!... y!! bcz driving is ur mission, ur way of dealing with the situation, u chose to drive ur car, so u just have to do it... u only then may ask Allaah to reach there safe and sound!

so let's conclude here, and excuse it's simplisity, that patience is like driving, is the state u r in when dealing with "Ibtilaa2", u only ask Allaaah to have only in the case of ibtilaa2, not always... and care for how u ask Allaah for it, not to be asking Allaah for the balaa2 :)

rabbena yo3allemna wa 2eyyakom, and thnx for ur time :)

assalamu 3alikom

لوجه الله

assalamu 3alikom,


I attended a session yesterday talking about "Deeds liwajh Allah" by Brother Ahmad.. an Egyptian Amercian man who is here in Egypt for a short visit and leaving soon isAllaah..


He spoke about several topics:

• What does "Liwajh Allaah" mean ?.. and y the face "wajh" ?
Liwajh Allaah means that it's done only for the Sake of Allah, seeking Allaah's satisfaction and pleasure..and y "Face (Wajh)", bcz, if sm1 is satisfied with what u did, u will know it directly form the face.. it's like this : u know that allaah is watching u, and u r doing now smth for his sake, and expecting the satisfaction smile in his Face "laysa kamithlihi shay2" sub7anahu wata3ala, and that he is smiling while seeing u dong the thing he likes u to do

• How to know that what u Did was "liwajh Allaah"?
-u don't care what u get back, u just do it for Allaah, bcz Allaaah loves it.let's say u gave ur friend a present "liwajh Allaah", and expected that he/she will treat u the next day so well out of ur gift's effect. unfortunatly, ur friend treated u bad.. if u for a second felt like:"I just gave him/her a present, how did he/she treat me like this!!"... then be sure it wasnt 100% liwajhi allaah.. cz, u see, u cared for what u get back, u did it for a purpose, for a benifit that u will gain, not purely liwajhi Allaah.All what u think of while doing anything is that : Allaah Loves....this needs sabr, patience, to wait to get the reward fel a5ira

• How to know that what u Will do is "liwajh Allaah"?
If u attempt ding smthn, and paused for a second thinking: i'm going to do it lwajhi Allaah.. just ask ur self a little Q; what if i falied in doing it, what if some one else did it ans suceeded, how will this make me feel?!.... will u ask ur self: y wasnt it me!!.. if u didnt, then it's liwajh Allahand always remember that every thing will go ack to Allaah, so there is no "me"...

• What pleases Allaah and the path to Allaah.
  u need to know that what pleases Allah most is what Allah made it fard, that's y it is Fard... and that there is a way to Allaah, a path, and that path is clear in the hadeeth:
  "إن الله تعالى قال : من عادى لي وليا فقد آذنته بالحرب ، و ما تقرب إلي عبدي بشيء أحب إلي مما افترضته عليه ، و ما زال عبدي يتقرب إلي بالنوافل حتى أحبه ، فإذا أحببته كنت سمعه الذي يسمع به ، و بصره الذي يبصر به ، و يده التي يبطش بها ، و رجله التي يمشي بها ، و إن سألني لأعطينه ، و لئن استعاذني لأعيذنه ، و ما ترددت عن شيء أنا فاعله ترددي عن قبض نفس المؤمن ، يكره الموت و أنا أكره مساءته "
  and Always remember that u need tawba for all the sins u did in ur life, and the fact that time passed doesnt mean that te sin was forgiven

Finally, seek "Al i7saan", always ask ur self: "anhy el a7san? " b4 doing anything,

Also, for ur sake, take time for just Allaah and u... and Love him, sub7anahu wata3alaa

// many thanks to Brother Ahmad, Ghada El Bedeawi and her family, and the Green Muslims :)

Salaaaaaam

Guiding Others

assalamu 3alikom,

i was talking to a third year friend tonight and she said: "our class isn't like urs, none of us helps others, every one there depends on him/her self, if not then on TAs"...

this made me think, Oh my God!!, how come!!.. i can tell u how we ppl -whenever possible- try our best to offer each other any help, we explain for each other, stand there for each other, we try to guide each other, and the most important thing is that we care!

i always give the simplest example about that, that the most helpfull peson in our class, Roaa, is ranked the 1st masha2Allaah.. u see, Allah rewards u back for what u do for His and ppl's sake.. i can't describe how gr8 if feels when u help sm1 in smth and he/she then keeps praying for u and thanking u for the thing u have done... it's priceless...

it's not only that u help ppl in studies, but give them expirence out of urs, help them even if they didnt ask u for help, guide them just if u feel that they may be needing it although they may not even realize it.. otherwise, y r u in their lives in the first place!!!!

recently, my collegue Alaa shaker, masha2Allaah bardo, he just thought of a session out of no where for the next senior students to guide them in their projects, and preparing for it nowadays... i dont think that anyone asked him for that!, it's just that when u know smth or learnt smth, u want to pass it to ppl, so that they dont suffer knowing it as much as u did..

if u just remember the pain u had when u needed guidance and u didnt find, or needed help and no one offered, u'll then know how deep, touching and gr8 it is to help others..

now, whenever any of those ppl is mentioned, that 1st word u hear is : "rabbena ybarekloo/laha".. and indeed, only Allaah is the one who can really weight their effort, based on their intentions, and pay them back...

and rabbena ybariklokoo ento kamaaan...

salaaaam

I'm Back

assalamu 3alikom,

it's quite clear that it has been a very long time since i last posted here, i donno y, i think i was really busy in the second term and had lots of things to worry about that made me even "Forget" that have a blod till sm1 remided me!!

well, i think i'm back, not sure yet :P, but i ewanna keep posting, it's like i've been isolated for awhile...

well, i have nthn to say, except that i had my results maybe yesterday, Very goog, al7amdulillaah, and now i'm graduated wal7amdulillaaah...

so, i hope i keep posting, as i was really surprised when i read my old posts today, i wrote that!!, feels nice :)

see u soon isAllaaah

salaaam

done with practicals, al7amdulillah

today al7amdulillah i finished el practicals , fadel el nazary...

i had networx and Cisco, i hated wat happened today.

both exams loaded my, not only the exams, both Dr.s too..

al7amdulillaaah 5allasnaaaa, w qaddara Allah w masha2 fa3al, w al7amdulillah 3ala kolli 7aal.

i'm tired and need to sleeep, i cant even complete the post.. later isAllah


salaaaaaaam