2ata3ty leeh! kan nefsaha tshoofik

Dear Zainab,

Today i was in the LAST place i would ever wanted to be in, i was in Rab3aa, ba3azzy feeki :'(.. the dearest, :'(.. enna lillaahi wa 2inna elayhi raj3ooon..

I just can't imagine that u left :| :'(, i can't believe it :| :| :| :|.. i miss u soooooooooo much already.. rabbena y-7ebbik, i know this was all what you wanted in life..

I always wanted to tell you that u are a bless, i didnt, i know it's late, but u are, u were!, u were a bless, and i'm sure i'll never ever forget u :'(

A week ago, I wrote u an SMS telling you that i miss u and i ended it with "Rabbena y7ebbik", but i kept it a draft, i didnt send it...I regret not sending it to u :'( .. i donno if you can hear me saying it.. but i miss u ya zeezi and i love u a lot :'(... if the time can come back, i would send it to you once i wrote it!

I remember our last call, when i promised to visit u soon, and i didnt.. this soon will never come!!.. forgive me plzzzzz :'(

I never had the chance of thanking u ya zeezi, for every thing.. u loved me in a way that no one ever did, u cared and asked about me even when u were on bed and suffering pain.. u called me when u were not able to speak just to see if i'm happy or not :'), I remember that u loved my smile, and were always happy when i call u, I'm sorry i wont be able to call u anymore :'( ..

I remember ur advices, and prayers, and i cannot forget how u loved Allaah, the Strong yaqeen that u had in Allaah, i never saw anyone like this!!.. I remember how patient u were, i remember ur intentions that u had when u got pregnant, i remember what u did when ur baby died, I learned a lot from u ya zeezi, realy A Lot.. i owe u much :'( .. rabbena ya2gorik keteeeeeeeeeeer 3alayyaa yaraaab, w yajzeeki 3anny 5ayr al jazaa2 :').. 

I remember ur Qor2aan lessons, i remember what u used to tell me about my self, i remember ur prayers for me and for my father, i remember ur msgs.... 

I'll never forget the msg that u said: when u ask Allaah for Jannaah, mention me with u, cz i love to be there with u :'( ..

I'm sorry that i knew that u passed away form strangers, i should be there next to u, forgive me ya zeezi..

Today, when i saw Mohammad Magdy fel 3aza he said:"2ata3ty leeh! kan nefsaha tshoofik".. i'm soooooooo sorryyyyyyy :'( :'( , sam7eeen argooooky :'(... i know it's too late.. but i'm really sorry ya zainab.. i wanted to see u more that u could imagine :'( i wanted to hear u prayng for me with ur weak and tired voice, the voice i love :').. forgive me plzzz..

Rabbena ysabbarooo M Magdy yaa raab, u know i love him sooo much ya zeezi.. and i couldnt bear his blame :'( and couldnt bear the word "2ata3ty leeh", nor the word "kan nefsaha tshoofik" :'(.. 

Dont worry abou Magdy, Allaah will look after him and after ur kids too :')

Zeezi, u were the dearest, u "are" the dearest, my heart is broken, and i can't stop crying.. but, "la naqoolo ella mayordy rabbanaa", enna lillaahi wa 2inna elayhi raji3oon :'(..

I want to tell u, cz u are asked now, that Allaah is our God, Muhammaad is our prophet, and Islaam is our religion.. yet, i'm sure that u can see now where u will sit in paradise :').. will I be with u :'( ???, can i ask u to pray for me??.. or is it over like this??????

rabbena ythabbitik 3inda as-su2aal, w yhawwen 3aleeki dammet el qabr, w y3'ferlik w yr7amik, w yg3al qabrik rawda mn el gannaa, w yobdilik daaraan 5ayraan mn darik w ahlaan 5ayraan mn ahlik, w ysabbar ahlik w awlaadik yaaa raaab

 

I hope u'll hear me whenever i talk to u :').. i now u'll be there.. maybe u wont miss me, but i'll miss u :'(

Zeezi, "Rabbena y7ebbik" :')

I'm On My Way

assalamu 3alikom,

I thought of sharing the following lyrics.. I love the spirit, espically that

nowadays I'm thinking and deeply wishing to travel away :) ..

leave u to enjoy :)

Tell everybody I'm on my way
New friends and new places to see
With blue skies ahead, yes I'm on my way
And there's no where else that I'd rather be

Tell everybody I'm on my way
And I'm loving every step I take
With the sun beatin' down, yes I'm on my way
And I can't keep this smile off my face

So tell 'em all I'm on my way
New friends and new places to see

And to sleep under the stars
and could ask for more
With the moon keeping watch over me

Not the snow not the rain can change my mind
The sun will come out, wait and see
And the feeling of the wind in your
face can lift your heart
Oh, there's no where I would rather be

'Cause I'm on my way now
Well and truly
I'm on my way now

I'm on my way now 

Tell everybody I'm on my way
And I just can't wait to be there
With blue skies ahead yes I'm on my way
And nothing but good times to share

So, tell everybody I'm on my way
And I just can't wait to be home
With the sun beating down yes I'm on my way
And nothing but good times to show

I'm on my way
Yes, I'm on my way

(from Brother Bear :) )

Salaaaam

One little slip - chicken little

It was a recipe for disaster
A four-course meal of no-sirree
It seemed that happily ever after
Was happy everyone was after me

It was a cup of good intentions
A tablespoon of one big mess
A dash of overreaction
I assume you know the rest

One little slip
One little slip
It was a fusion of confusion
With a few confounding things

I guess I probably took the wrong direction
Well, I admit I might have missed a sign or two
I ran a light past your affection
At Humiliation Avenue

I took a right turn at confusion
A left when I should have gone straight on through
I ran ahead with my assumptions
And we all know what that can do

One little slip
One little slip
It was a fusion of confusion
With a few confounding things

I get the feeling in this town
I'll never live ‘til I live down
The one mistake that seems to follow me around
They'll forget about the sky when they all realize
This guy's about to try to learn to fly or hit the ground

It was a cup of good intentions
A tablespoon of one big mess
A dash of overreaction
And I assume you know the rest

One little slip
One little slip
It was a humble little stumble
With a big ungraceful...

One little slip
One little slip
It was a fusion of confusion
With a few confounding things

Here

Lay Down the Burden..

The professor began his class by holding up a glass of water in his hand. He held it up for all to see and then asked the students:

"How much do you think this glass weighs?"

"50gms!" 

..."100gms!" 

..."125gms", the students answered.

"We don't know for sure unless we weigh it," said the professor, "but, my real question is: What would happen if I held this glass up like this for a few minutes?"

"Nothing" ...the students said.

"Ok, what would happen if I held it up like this for an hour?" the professor
asked.

"Your arm would begin to ache" said one of the student

"You're right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?"

"Your arm could go numb, you might have severe muscle stress, paralysis and
will have to go to hospital for sure!"... ventured another student.

All the students laughed.

"Very good. But during all this, did the weight of the glass change?"
asked the professor.

"No" ... was the answer.

"Well, then what caused the arm to ache and the severe muscle stress?"

The students were puzzled.

"Okay. Tell me what should I do now to come out of the pain?" asked professor again.

"Put the glass down!!" said all the students in chorus

"Exactly!" said the professor. 

~~~

Life's problems are something like this.

Hold them for a few minutes in your mind and they seem okay.
Hold of them for a long time and they begin to ache.
Hold them even longer and they begin to paralyze you. 
You feel weak and incapable of doing anything!

--

Special thanks to Youmna Zaki :)
While it's important to think about the challenges in your life, it is even more important to remember to put them down every now and again