It's been 2 weeks!!

assalamu 3alikom,

Dear Zainab,

How are you now?? :) I've been praying for you a lot since you left :'), 2 weeks!! do you believe it!!.. I wonder what are you doing now??I pray that you are not lonely :').. maybe no much ppl are out there.. but i pray that u are having "2ons billaah" :') and your grave is part from al jannaah yaa raaab

Zeezi.. i miss u sooo much :'(.. every time i feel like calling you i remember that you wont pick up .. but i really wanna talk to u :'(

Zeezi, i know u always wanted to know about me, i'm fine ya 7abeeeba :'), it's just that i miss you :'(.. and i remember you a lot...

I wish I can remember every single detail, and every single word, but i just cant :'(.. i remember things from time to time..  i wish that i've recorded every second with you.

Zeezi, I learnt alot from your death.. you can say that i have changed.. or -to be more accurate- woke up... i realize things differently, i now understand things that you used to tell me more clearly..

i'm focusing more on what i have in hand now, i can see the bless ya zeezi, ana rabbenaa ma3ayaa 3ala tool, w mesh bysebny abadan,.. i see it ya 7abibty and i feel it all the time.. rabbena byar3any even when i dont ask him for it :').. al7amdulillaaah :')..

my heart changed ya zeezi, it's not like b4, this was even b4 u died, but it increased, and the meanings i had in things changed too :').. al7amdulillaaah, i feel more free and happy :')..

I wish you were here to tell you as i always used to do :'(.. al7amdulillaah, i cant be that selfish, i know that u have a better company isAllaaah :')

Zeezi, today in the cab, the radio was on, it was that cancer hospital campaign, 57357, i couldnt hear it ya zeezi, i just cried... i hate cancer, i really wish that no one else ever suffers from it.. Allahumma 3afina wa3fu 3annaa yaa raaab.. i know u suffered a lot... may Allaah bless u now and reward you for the great patience you had :')

Zeezi, I call Magdy from time to time, he misses u a lot ya zeezi, really a lot, and he is trying to do his best not to make your kids feel lonely... may Allah be with him.. pray for him.. rabbena ysabbaro :'(

I'll try to be there for your kids from time to time..isAllaah i'll do my best..

He said to me: "eftekry kalamha leeki ya Noha, ana mesh ha2ollik ennaha kanet bet7ebbik, l2annik konty belnesbalha 7aga tanya, enty mesh 3arfa kanet bet7ebbik ezzaay w konty bel nesbalha a!! Allaaah yer7amha, w y3ezz 3alayya enny 2a2ool Allaah yr7amha :(.. bas al7amdulillaah 3ala koll shee2".. I just wanted to tell you the same about u :')

Rabbena ya3fu 3annik ya zeezi w yg3alik fee a3laa 3elleyyeen, w yg3alik fel ferdaws el a3laa, w y7a22alik elly kan nefsik feeh :')...

Whenever i miss you, i dont know what to do, but one thing i'm sure of that i pray for you :'), i know u need prayers, and you always asked me for them...

you know ya zeezi!!, every time in sujood i say: yaa raab eshfy Mrs. Zainab..!!... then i remember :| .. and i correct it asking Allaah to reward you with Jannaaah.. It's just not that simple to get used to the fact of ur death.. but I manage wal7amdulillaaah.

I miss you LOADs.. and please, if u can, pray for me

Rabbena y7ebbik ya zeezi :')

2anti 7abeeba 7abeeba, wa min qalby qareebah :') .. love you :')