When u think of them..

السلام عليكم

بيحصل إن حد يخطر على بالك مرة وحدة وتفتكره بدون أي سبب؟

أو يخطر على بالك وتقول ياااااه أنا بالي كتير أوي مكلمتوش، فيينه؟

أو تفتكر حد وتحس إنو وحشك؟

أو تفكر في حد و ييجي في بالك بس مش أكتر وتحس إنو بقى مش موجود، وتحس بفرق ولو بسيط؟؟؟

كل إلي عايزة اقوله إنهاردة إن أول مييجي حد في بالك كلمه على طول... إسأل عليه، أكيد إنت كمان جيت في باله ونفسه يسمع صوتك

أول مايوحشك حد إسأل عليه، أكيد إنت كمان وحشه أوي بس معرفش يكلمك

أول ماتفتكر حد إنه مرة قالك حاجة أو نصحك بحاجة أومجرد جه في بالك، إبعتلو ولو حتى ميل سلم عليه، أكيد هو نفسه يطمن عليك ويعرف أخبارك بس ما حاولش يكللمك لسبب ما

أول ما ينط في بالك حد كلمه على طول أو بالميل

do it instantly

هتلاقي الحد بيقولك أول سطر فالميل أو أول كلمة فالمكالمة: ياااااه، كنت بفكر فيك ، سبحان الله!!..... هتحس إحساس حلو أوي، وتفرح أوي انك إنت إلي بادرت، وتحس ان الشخص د كان فعلاً وحشك أو إنت فعلا ممتن ليه

في أمان الله (:

(3) في رعاية الله

assalamu 3alikom..

I'm just going on telling u stuff that i feel that Allaah is tellig me: "I'm here, next to you.. dont worry"..

Now,i'm in UAE, alone with my father, and i'm seeking a job, applied almost every where online, but no one replied..
i'm here alone.. my father is with me yes, but i didnt contact any of my friends, didnt talk to them, not seeing anyone, not going anywhere except for the hospital and related places... i dont watch TV at ALL, i dont talk on phone, nthn...... just me, dad and the house work..
Al7amdulillaaah, i'm not complaining at all, i'm just giving u a picture in order to let u see what i'll say as i saw it..
Then one day, i was in the car with dady, then i thought like: "y dont i pray that i work here!", cz i only say ya rabb lw feeh 5eer, and i pray isti5ara for working here... but i never said: "ya rabb ashta3'al henaa".. i wondered y!.. maybe i just want to be satisfied, so i'm not asking Allaah for a particular thing, and that way i'm totally leaving it for the isti5ara result and Allaah's well..
but that day i thought, i will say it as: ya rabb ashta3'al hena, ya rabb 2ala2y sho3'l hena.. and i thought that this doesnot contradict with my belief that Allaah will do me the best wether in Egypt or UAE..

The next day, i recieved a phone call on my mobile. Usually the numbers that call me here are from egypt, but this one was from UAE.. and i didnt give any of my UAE friends my number, i didnt tell them i'm here till now.. even when i apply online for a job, i write my dad's number not mine... i was wondering who could this be!

It was Rabab, a friend of mine from the clg, the same department of mine too, she came to UAE, her family is here, and she is looking for a job too!.. i never ever expevted such a call at all!!
Rabab spoke about working together, she mentioned that her sister can contact some ppl and look for a job for both of us not only her, we agreed on meeting soon and hoped we get the chance to work to gether...
I cant tell u how happy i was with that phone call..
1) a friend is there!! a nice one too.. sm1 i can talk to and say rubbish :P, away of my daily activities i do here.
2) Rabab lives two blocks away from mine!
3) Allaah sent me Rabab to tell me: I'm here, u r not alone, i feel u and i sent u some one to make u smile :)... Noha, i know u searched for a job a lot, i know that u want to work here, and u did all what u can do, leave it to me, i can get u a job in another way, a way that u never thought of!! Rabab's sister!.. ya Allaaaah, i really never expected that.. i thought of it the traditional way, i apply online and one of the companies reply to me and here i go!.. sub7ana Allaaah

u know, no matter how this will end like, whether Rabab's sister finds me a job or not, whether i stay here or go back to Egypt, i'm really satisfied, pleased with Allaah and love him soooo much..
I loved the way he told me: i'm here ya Noha, dont worry like that!... i really felt that he - sub7anahu wata3ala- "by-tabtab 3alayyaa" and his "tabtaba" is full of love, compassion, mercy and tenderness..

I had the same feeling i told u about, i felt so happy, wanted to kiss the ground and hug anything around.. i made sujood shokr and thanked Allaah for making me feel that i'm not alone!
and as i told dad, even if i didnt have a job here, it's very enough for me that Allah makes me feel that i'm never alone, and will let me leave, if i left, will all the satisfaction that i may ever want..
al7amdulillaaaahi rabbel 3alameeen

salaaaaaam

Walk to that door!

assalamu 3alikom

as we are now almost in "Al 3ash al awa5er" of Ramadan, i thought of sharing this with u, a nice meaning i learnt from brother Ahmad in one of the Green Muslims sessions, rabbena y3ezzo ya rabb..

let's assume now that we are sittng in a room, and there is a closed door.. and i tell u: "walk to that door", then what will u do??

imagine ur self, see it, and see what will u do!

u will most probably get up, walk to the door, then walk back to me saying: "i did!"..

actually u didnt!.. cz there is a Q, y did i ask u to walk to that door in the first place!!!, didnt u think of that!.. i wanted u to walk to the door, open it, and take a treasure that is behind the door.. and all u did was that u did an effort, it could be a big one, but in vain!

The same exactly applies on worshipping Allaah.. Allaah tells us to pray, and we "perform" prayer 5 times daily, but we just dont think of the treasure behind the prayer, the great Thawab that we can get if we just brought up some intentions.. we perform actions, do effort, and finish the prayer without any 5oshoo3, we just walk to the door and gome back withou even trying to open it!
Same applies for reading Qur2aan - no 5oshoo3, tadabbor, 3ezaa and tafakkor, nthn- and for Fasting -Allah says : fahuwa lee wa2ana ajzy bih- we walk to the door and we dont think of the reason why Allaah - sub7anahu wata3aala- tld us to do it, and Ramadan is just over and the benefit we got is a big Zero!

b4 the "al 3ashr al wa5aer" think of the doors that u can walk to, think y will u walk to them, think of the treasure behind them, and open them and get the treasue.. be a winner - 2ola2ika hom al fa2izooon-...

just a little thing: the beauty of Islam also appears in that the treasure u will get is what u thought u will get.. u can give some one a glass of water and take only one 7asanaa, or give him the same glass and take millions of 7asanaat, depending of the "neyyaat" u had when handing him the glass..

Happy Last days of Ramadan :)
Salaaam

(2) في رعاية الله

welcome again :)
now i'm going on telling u how i feel "re3ayat" Allaah, or ma3eyyat Allaah, ad took my trip to KSA as an example.. cz it happens a lot wal7amdulillaah :)

In my six hours transit i stayed at the airport mousque, where a six years old Bangaly girl "Afraa" asked me what's my name, then we became friends, me, her and her little sister "Arwa".. they are Muslims and live in London.. for some time, this girl kept talking about islam and her teacher and prohet Muhammad pbuh and Mousa pbuh and i thought like: "al7amdulillaah that Allaah sent me sm1 to have a conversation of which i can gain 7asanaat, i really dont know what were i going to do in those six hours".. then she left me to sleep a bit, i had a headache.. i didnt feel like eating the snacks i got with me, i was all alone, in a place that i dont know.. u just dont feel like eating, i didnt even feel like asking about the transit free meals... so, i tried to sleep. after some minutes i woke up on Afraa's voice saying:"Noha, wake up, i brought u food :)" ... i was : :, speachless, i cant describe how i felt then, looking at this tiny little girl, carrying the tray, heading towards me, and saying i brought u food!, oh Allaah, i felt sub7ana Allaaah, see in whom he sent me my rezq... i was thrilled in that moment, i kept thanking her a lot, and asked: how much did u pay for that?, she said it's free.. and she left me to eat.. i was hungry, didnt want to eat but hungry, i ate not cz i wanted to eat, but bcz i felt it's a way of thanking Allaah for it, is to take what he sent to me "min 3'ayri 7awlin lee wala qowwah".. at the moment i started eating, tears dropped from my eyes, i felt the feeling i spoke previously about, i felt really like crying, i made sujoud shokr, and ate with eyes full of tears, with the altimate gratitude to Allaah for this transit experience :)


TBC :)
salaam for now

في رعاية الله

assalamu 3alikom,

"Ma3eyyat Allaah", yaaaaaaaaaah, how touching!, it's a priceless feeling when u feel that Allaah is taking care of u, protecting u, and sending ppl and making causes just to take care of u..

It makes me feel sooo happy for a short while, then suddenly a strong desire to cry, kiss the ground, hug anything around me, and tell Allaaah: "yaaah ya rabby, ana ba7ebbaak awii"..

they are simple things, very simple, but it is how u see them, u may see them as an original event or result for smth, or see that Allaah made all the surroundings happen only to make these little things for u..
I had a transit in KSA for 9 hours!!, that was a very ling time, my family took me to "Metro" b4 heading to the airport and kept convicing me to buy some snacks to eat in KSA, i wasnt that keen about it..
My flight took off from Egypt 3 hours late than it's scheduled time, i thought: "al7amdulillaah, waiting in my country in much better than waiting in a place i donno, now my transit became 6 hours, thank u Allaah"..
My seat wasnt a window seat, i love window seats.. but i said 5eer ya3ny, al7amdulillaah, then sm1 came and said: "excuse me madam can u sit over there cz there is a family who want to sit together?" and over there was a window seat :)

enough for today :)

see u in part two,
fe Aman Allaah :)

(2) مصر في عيون سعودية

assalamu 3alikom,

I didnt wrote this sooner, sorry for that..

anyways, let me remind u that i had an indirect flight and went to KSA via the Saudi airlines..

In the plane, i sat next to a "talkative" SAudi wonam, who was in Egypt visiting her sister and applying for her son in on of the Egyptian private unversities..

I asked her y does her sister live in Egypt, she is Saudi and married to a Saudi man, the woman said that her sister's husband preferes egypt, and she commented on that saying : "Although he is so quite, he like only to stay at home, he doesnt like doing out to casinos, disco, movies, or any other things that are in egypt, sub7ana Allaah"... she is surprised how come he is that quite and like Egypt although all of what she mentioned.. ya salaaaam!!! she made me feel that Egyptian ppl walk all the time singing, watching movies, go no where but to casinos and disco bars.. give me a break!!! i never went to a disco b4!!!!!!

this is the bad image our serials and mvies give to the outside world about us! thnx to media!!

let's look at the bright side:
- i asked her y did u get ur son to study in Egypt?!, she said he wants a speciality that is not available in KSA, and Egypt is well known of it's "education".. here i wanted to laugh :D
and she also mentioned that Cairo university is well known there, and they think it's smth... i asked her about Ain Shams she said: "yes, that too" :P

- she said: "but the number of veiled and scarfed women really surprised me, i was here in Egypt 15 years ago and almost all the girls werent covering their hair, and almost all of them wore mini jupes and short dresses, i am really surprised with their clothing too, it's clear that there is a "sa7wa deneyya" in the country ", i said yes :)

that's it :)
that's how ppl see us, as a stupid nation, that will never ever progress due to our disorder and selfishness, and a religouse one!!!... two opposits, Ironic!

see u soon :)
salaaaaaaaam

What i really really really want

assalamu 3alikom,

i dont exactly remember this, but i think i heard that u need to ask ur self: "what do i really really really want?", it's a way to know ur deepest desires.
well, u may see this strange, but there are a lot of ppl who dont know what they really want, and this question sometimes helps, the 3 "really" makes u think or seek deeply inside or among ur desires.

what i really really really wanted were two things, and they were somewhat contradicting.. i didnt think i could have them both cz having one of them decreases the chances of having the other.
the first, that i really really really wanted, and dreamed of having, and wanted so badly , i now just cant get anymore, i already lost it forever, and it really hurts.. but al7amdulillaaah 3ala kolli 7aal..

now, i sometimes think that Allaah made me lose the first so that he will give me the second, so that i focus more on the second one and have better chances of having it, who knows!!
but i sometimes see that the chances of having the second are degrading too, i feel like i'm losing it too.. am i gonna have it?! Allahu a3lam..

not having the second makes me remeber the firt and the pain of losing it, well, i cant say "losing" as i didnt have it in the first place, but i just didnt have it :)

al7amdulillah qaddara Allahu wama shaa2a fa3al, i believe it wasnt mine in the 1st place, Allaah didnt want it for me, but what about the second??..

as these 2 things are what i really really really wanted, i cant imagine my self not having the second either, i ask Allaah to give it to me if it was the 5eer, and make me satisfied if it wasnt mine..

this was 7abbet fadfada.. pray for me, may Allaah satisfay me in all cases ya rabb

مصر في عيون سعودية

assalamu 3alikom,

I had an indirect flight to UAE, transit in KSA "Riyaad", so i travelled from Cairo on the Saudi airlines to Riyaad for the first time in my life..
The airport was soooo crowded, my plane was taking off at 1:35 A.M so i went to the airport at 11:00 P.M. and ofcourse it was the "New" airport.. i have been to about 6 or 5 airports, abd this "New" airport is the worst ever, it's like puplic toilets, very very ugly and really bad, i hate it.. i just wonder, how does the Egyption government or whatever make such a horrible place for tourists and foriegn travellers while leaving the "old"-better- airport for Egypt air travellers!!!! i ralley cant describe how nasty the "new" airport is if u havent seen it :S

Anyways, i stood in the chech-in line from 11:15 till 1:20 or sumting.. Check in only! of course i witnessed LOTS of fightes and yelling, very bad attitudes, disorder, randomness, worse than any line u ever stood in.
ofcourse a lot of Saudi ppl was there, and they were never treaded like that.. all were not pleased and not satisfied.. and of the comments i heard, i'm listing some:
- My First time to see an Embarrassed Egyptian, the never feel shy .. boga7a ya3ny/* a Saudi wonam saw an Egyption man embarrased*/
- Egyptian ppl will never be civilized, they will always stay as they are
- /* yelling at the check in guy*/ Tell me y we didnt finish till now while all egyptians are done!! bcz we stay in a line and we are organised...Toz fe Masr, Toz fe Masr
-/* yelling too*/ y are u treating us like this, y!!!, the money is our money and the airlines are our are lines, damn u .. and she mentioned smth about that we dont deserve what kning Abdel Aziz did for us in egypt.. any ideas what was that ?!!! i wanna know
- /*to a porter*/ u only do things for money, i have to pay u to get my things done, how nasty.. egyptians will never be good workers

and much more..
telling the truth, i felt shame... not only the airport looks like an old WC, but ppl are behaving really bad, no manners nothing.. egyption men exceed Saudi women in the line to get there first and put there bags and yell... really bad...

it's a moral issue, a whole culture that needs to be fixed, ppl need to be raised all over again and know how to treat ppl, cz we realy dont know..

wel mota5llef mota5allef 3ala ra2y el so3odeyyeen!
7asafah!!

wait for part two

salaaam