advise me, i CAN'T advise myself

assalamu 3alikom,

well, now i'm confused which department i should join in our college. and i really dont know... mmmmmm, i should decide soon whether it's Computer Science or Computer Systems.

what do i think of Csys??

1) i started thinking about it due to the graduation project, and started praying isti5ara.... then i was convinced that there is no relation between them- project and department- , but i donno y it just entered my mind and not getting off!!!

2) i feel that i will learn about "Technology" in Csys, and that's smth that i want to know about.... But, i donno if i will make it in CSys. it's somewhat like engineering and i donno if i will succeed in such a study :S

3) i believe that the good Drs and small number of students is a great factor fel mawdoo3, bezzat that i like the drs, they are really good masha2Allah and ready to do anything for us. // except for one: DR. S. S.

4) there are ppl who were forced to join the department and can never adapt, it's like hell for them... in the other hand, i can adapt, i do.... so i thought of giving other ppl a chance, i can't be greedy.

5) i dont want my career to be "DEVELOPER" and only developer... i have other dreams, and i believe that joining CSys gives me more options.

6) there is a probability that i'll be a T.A if i join CSys. of course our college is not "amalaa" to be a T.A feeha, but this will be a very good advantage in my CV if i will change my career.

Now, what do i think about CS???

1) i Love programming, i love the .NET framework... it's like a nightmare that i will not do programming in CSys.

2) i want that i'll gain much skills in CS, learn more stuff and so.... keda keda i will work in this career even for a short while b4 i change it!

3) subjects are familiar, we already know smth about every thing, so it wont be that bad as CSys... but i hate to "STUDY" science for science... i prefer it as general knowledge.

4) All most all the students in CS are really good, the atmosphere will be challenging and encouraging to work and so... un like CSys... 3/4 of the students are not even "pass".

5) there is a T.A who will give one of the courses, and i do HATE that man, i donno how can i ever attend any of his sections.... aslo nazel fe kolloo :S

6) i dont need to go in depth awy in CS due to the view that i have for my career - i mean changing it w keda-, so, why to bother in CS.

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well, i'm really confused, and donno what to do. Feeling that i'm in a moral situation and i have to let go CS for others makes my brain unable to think.

i attended lectures in both and yet i cant decide. in CS i feel that there is smth in me refusing to hear the lecturer although i may understand.

and smth in me makes me listen so carefully in CSys although i really dont get some stuff.

ya rabbb, "rabby 5ir le wa5tarly".. "Allahumma dabberly fa2enny la o7seno attadbeer"

sry guys for this desperate post, but do u have any suggestions??!!


salaaaam