Dear Zainab,
Yesterday i was holding a paper and pen and I was thinking: yaah, for a long time i didn't have that feeling that Allaah is "bykremny", the deep gratitude that Allaah has done very special thing specially for me and only me, the feeling that i say "yaaaaaaaaaah" and feel deeply blessed and rush to make sajdet shukr.. i was thinking of this and missing this feeling a lot.. i wrote down: "I miss Al..." and was about to write "i miss Allaah", i paused for a second and thought: No Allaah is always there for me, Allaah is there, it's not that i miss Allaah, it's that i miss Karam Allaaah, i miss "Al Kareem", and that how i wrote it "i miss Al Kareem".. and sighed: ya rabb ekremny :)
4 hours later, i went to the Qur2an lesson with a dear friend from work, in the class i have a teacher that i don't like her way of teaching much, but i used to say: no problem, i'll bare that for the sake of Allaah, anyway, all i want is to learn!.
Now, back to the point, when i went to the lesson the teacher told us (my fiend and me) you have been moved to another class, we said ok and went.
I can't tell you how great the other teacher is, she is really awesome, she "knows" what she says, i really felt a student with her although she looks young.. i was so happy to join her class.. al7amdulillaaah :)
Then in the lecture, the lecturer was talking about the intentions, that they should be purely for Allaah when attending the Qur2an lessons, she mentioned that she was once revising Qur2an (masha2Allaah she memorizes it all) and reciting Qur2aan with a teacher who memorizes only 5 chapters of Qur2an, and she was feeling bad about it, how can someone memorizing the whole qur2an have a teacher memorzing only 5 chapters!, she mentioned that to her Shaikh -Sh. Mahmoud Al Tablawy- and he said: لو اخلصتي النية لله لجعلها الله لك جبريلا يُقرؤك القرآن... she commented and said:that was true, be sure that if your intention is scincere for the sake of Allaah, he will bless you and teach you. At that moment i remembered when you told me: "واتقوا الله ويعلمكم الله".
And that's how my teacher changed :), Allaah did bless me al7amdulillaa :), i'm very pleased about it and feel blessed, i felt this is "Karam" from Allaah "Alkareem" whom i asked for his karam earlier that day.. indeed: إن ربي لسميع الدعاء :)
You know, everytime i go to the lesson i remember you, i pray for you, and wish you share me thawaab, you encourged me, i always remember your words.. I love you :)
Al7amduluillaah :)
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Friday, May 15, 2009
Forgive Me When I Whine
Assalamu 3alikom
The story i'm about to tell now may seem silly, actually very silly :D, but that day i was so happy and sajadtt shokr cz i deeply felt that Allaah is with me :)
Last wednesday, at work, early morning, my TL told me online: "Noha, Amr is on a vacation today, please come and sit in his place".
Amr is a collegue of mine and his partition is next to my TL's, she wanted us to sit next to her to "facilitate the communication" as she said. That is because i'm sitting really far from her, our floor is like a rectangle -like any floor on earth :D- i sit in the right side and she is on the left one, so it really takes time to go to her.
However, i dislike sitting there, i dont feel comfortable at all at that side, so i decided to tell her that i wont go :D (this shows how i've really changed :D, when I first started work, i was VERY obedient (A))
We argued online, then i went to her, and she kept insisting that i sit there and i kept insisting that i dont want to!
Normally, in such situations, I HAVE to do what she says, but my problem was (in addition to that i dont feel comfortable there) that another team member was sitting away, and there is only one place available "temporarily", so even if i move, another team member will still be sitting away, so we are not actually solving the "communication problem".
I told her both reasons!! But she kept insisting and i kept refusing for some time!!!
I forgot to tell you that she didnt ask the other team member cz she is afraid of her and both dislike each other (ma2edritsh 3ala 7omaar 2edret 3ala el barda3a!! and this also irritated me very much)
The conversation ended that she will talk to our manager to solve the issue. Yes, that was a threat! but i would say the same thing to the manager if she asked me to move.
I was strict and calm while talking to her, but once i left her i went to the other team member who sits away and started crying, i really hated how she insisted and that she didn't respect how i feel about moving and wanted to force me to move!
In less than 30 mins, one of the company emplyees who is responsible of the place and partitions and stuff like that, came to us and said: "We have changes in places because we will need to do some fixes in other floors, so we want to re-allocate you all, all the teasting team will sit in one side, to leave the other side for the support team who will come form the 5th floor!"..
No need to tell you that the side that the testing team will move to, was the one i'm sitting in :D, so now, I will not move and the TL is the one who will move to come to my side "the testing side" according to managerial commands!!
I Felt like WOW :D (I feel WOW alot, i know :D) bgd sub7ana Allaaaaaaaaaah, it's not only that i wont move my place, it's that All the testing team should stay at that part of the floor, and she will come!! WOW...
My mate told me: "wa yamkoroona wa yamkuru Allaah" :D!! enty feeki shee2 lillaaah, enty el wa7ed y5aaf yday2ik :D
And i made sajdet shokr and my mate was luaghing out load of what had happened :D
I didnt feel happy, cz i felt that if i was happy i will be like (bashmaat feehaa) but bgd, i deeply felt gratitude, that Allaah was there next to me, in this very trivial issue, that is not critical by any how.
Al7amdulillaah bgd :).. i learnt from this situation to trust Allaah more, I felt Ma3eyyat Allaah, i felt that Allaah 3aazza wajall is telling me: See, i manage your life very well. See how i managed your place and made a whole floor need some fixes just not to let you move forced from your place, imagine what can be what i'm doing now for you manage your life!!
Adrakt 3azamet rabbena aktaar at that moment, and felt smaaaaall, veryy smaaall.. bsara7aa keda, esta7eeet mn rabbena, esta7eet that I sometimes complain, sometimes i feel bad about things that happen to me (knowing that what happens to you is how Allaaah manages your life!), i felt like I wanted to apologize to Allaah and say i'm sorry,
Oh Allaah, oh Allaah, forgive me when i whine :)
The story i'm about to tell now may seem silly, actually very silly :D, but that day i was so happy and sajadtt shokr cz i deeply felt that Allaah is with me :)
Last wednesday, at work, early morning, my TL told me online: "Noha, Amr is on a vacation today, please come and sit in his place".
Amr is a collegue of mine and his partition is next to my TL's, she wanted us to sit next to her to "facilitate the communication" as she said. That is because i'm sitting really far from her, our floor is like a rectangle -like any floor on earth :D- i sit in the right side and she is on the left one, so it really takes time to go to her.
However, i dislike sitting there, i dont feel comfortable at all at that side, so i decided to tell her that i wont go :D (this shows how i've really changed :D, when I first started work, i was VERY obedient (A))
We argued online, then i went to her, and she kept insisting that i sit there and i kept insisting that i dont want to!
Normally, in such situations, I HAVE to do what she says, but my problem was (in addition to that i dont feel comfortable there) that another team member was sitting away, and there is only one place available "temporarily", so even if i move, another team member will still be sitting away, so we are not actually solving the "communication problem".
I told her both reasons!! But she kept insisting and i kept refusing for some time!!!
I forgot to tell you that she didnt ask the other team member cz she is afraid of her and both dislike each other (ma2edritsh 3ala 7omaar 2edret 3ala el barda3a!! and this also irritated me very much)
The conversation ended that she will talk to our manager to solve the issue. Yes, that was a threat! but i would say the same thing to the manager if she asked me to move.
I was strict and calm while talking to her, but once i left her i went to the other team member who sits away and started crying, i really hated how she insisted and that she didn't respect how i feel about moving and wanted to force me to move!
In less than 30 mins, one of the company emplyees who is responsible of the place and partitions and stuff like that, came to us and said: "We have changes in places because we will need to do some fixes in other floors, so we want to re-allocate you all, all the teasting team will sit in one side, to leave the other side for the support team who will come form the 5th floor!"..
No need to tell you that the side that the testing team will move to, was the one i'm sitting in :D, so now, I will not move and the TL is the one who will move to come to my side "the testing side" according to managerial commands!!
I Felt like WOW :D (I feel WOW alot, i know :D) bgd sub7ana Allaaaaaaaaaah, it's not only that i wont move my place, it's that All the testing team should stay at that part of the floor, and she will come!! WOW...
My mate told me: "wa yamkoroona wa yamkuru Allaah" :D!! enty feeki shee2 lillaaah, enty el wa7ed y5aaf yday2ik :D
And i made sajdet shokr and my mate was luaghing out load of what had happened :D
I didnt feel happy, cz i felt that if i was happy i will be like (bashmaat feehaa) but bgd, i deeply felt gratitude, that Allaah was there next to me, in this very trivial issue, that is not critical by any how.
Al7amdulillaah bgd :).. i learnt from this situation to trust Allaah more, I felt Ma3eyyat Allaah, i felt that Allaah 3aazza wajall is telling me: See, i manage your life very well. See how i managed your place and made a whole floor need some fixes just not to let you move forced from your place, imagine what can be what i'm doing now for you manage your life!!
Adrakt 3azamet rabbena aktaar at that moment, and felt smaaaaall, veryy smaaall.. bsara7aa keda, esta7eeet mn rabbena, esta7eet that I sometimes complain, sometimes i feel bad about things that happen to me (knowing that what happens to you is how Allaaah manages your life!), i felt like I wanted to apologize to Allaah and say i'm sorry,
Oh Allaah, oh Allaah, forgive me when i whine :)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
إن ربي لسميع الدعاء
assalamu 3alikom,
At work, it was planned that we travel to Qatar to deliver the project we are working on, the travel date was set on 20/1/09, and had been changed to 22/1/09 :), which is tom :)
of course al7amdulillaah i was praying isti5ara about traveling to Qatar, and after that i have been told that i'm chosen to travel.. so al7amdulillaah :)
One day, i went to visit my aunt, where i met her husband -he works also as a da3eya- and i told him that i'm leaving to Qatar soon isAllaah..
Then came his Q: "Who is the "me7rem" who is travelling with u??".. i said: "none, but i'm travelling with refqa ma2moona- el shar3 says: me7rem OR refqa ma2moona".. he said:"Honey, refqa ma2moona if u were 45 years old or smth, now with ur age, u travel only with a me7rem, if u were my daughter, i wont let u travel"...
Well, i didnt know what to say, i was totally convinced that it's not 7araam as we have "refqa ma2moona", and i said to myself: anyways, i'm praying isti5araa, and Allaah will do what's good :)..
Few days later, a friend confirmed the information that "refqa ma2moona" condition applies only if we were 45 years old or more!, and she said: tab3aan 7araaam.. i was :S :S.. Again i thought: i'm praying isti5ara, Allaah will do what is good :)
Then for a second i thought: Wait a min!!!, it's 7araaam, i'm making isti5ara on ma3seyaa!!!!!!!, how stupid!!! i have to refuse travelling with no question!!!
Well, it was too late to refuse, i felt really bad… I may do smth 7araam Only in case I Dont know it's 7araaam.. But doing it intentionally knowing it's 7araam!!, this is not me!!!
What shall i do now!!, i just cant go to my manager and say: Good morning, I’m not traveling cz it's 7araam.. ya salaaaaaaaaam, ommaal wafe2t leeh mn el awwel!!!!!!
i prayed to Allaah and said: ya rabby plz, u know how i really wanted to go, and u know i dont want to do anything 7araam, ya rabby i'm not sure if this is refqa ma2moona or not.. please dont let me choose.. ya rabby, if u are not rady about this trip, plz ya raaby prevent it by anyhow, dont let me choose, i'll be satisfied with whatever u choose for me, just dont let me do smth 7araam, plzzz...
Then, tan tan taaaaaaaaaan, we had a meeting, the manager said: "Let me tell u the latest updates. Every thing is booked, ur tickets and hotel, and money is ready.. yet there is only one thing, Qatar rejected ur visas.. cz Qatar does not accept any visa applications for "Egyptian" or "Philippines" "Females" , only males!!!!!!"...
I felt like : WOOOOWWW :D :D :D, shokraaan ya rabbenaaa awiiiiiiiiiii... al7amdulillaaaaaaah, i didnt have to choose :D.. actually we all believe that there are problems between Qatar and Egypt bcz not allowing the Qatari aids for Gaza, and not attending the Summit in Qatar... But peace :D :D, Hosni Mubarak didnt go to Qatar so that i dont do smth 7araaam :D.. Allaaah really "7allaha" on his own way, on a veryyyy large scale :) :) :) ...al7amduillaaaaah :) :)
Now, a TL of mine has to travel to UK, alone too, i just said: Al7amdulillaahi allathy 3aafana memma ibtala bihi katheeran mn 5alqih :).. it's a bless that Allaah keeps sins away from u :) al7amdulillaaaaah :)
Thanks ya Allaaaah, indeed: enna rabbyy la-samee3-ul Du3aa2 :)
al7amdulillaaah :)
Thursday, January 1, 2009
On my way to work..
Assalamu 3alikom,
My dear friend Nosayba once told me that she was very overloaded, one day she s on her way to clg she said : "ya rabb ogbor b-5atry", and in that day a dear friend of hers showed up with a beautiful present and gave it to her for no reason except that she loves her :)...
I prayed and prayed, and thanked Allaaah for letting me have this wonderful chance, and for reminding me to pray at that moment too, cz i could have simply just drink without remembering to pray!.. al7amdulillaaaaaaah :), i felt that rabbena made this girl go to 7ajj for me :) .. al7amdulillaaaah
Shokraan ya Rabbenaa... Rabbena indeed gabar b5atryyy :) :)
Thanks Nosyba :) (F)
Monday, October 13, 2008
The Nasty me!!
assalamu 3alikom,
First i want u to know that "me" in the title does not refer to me myself, but it is smthn that me, u and all of us may tell ourselves.
It is a great moment when you say: "Oh my God, How nasty i am!!". Am i saying "great"?!!, oh yes! :).. because it's when u see how small u are and how great Allah is, how merciful, generous, and kind.
Let me tell u a little story. Before this Ramdan, i decided to make Tawba, as most of you did, I wrote a Tawba list, listed the bad things i wanted to quit and decided -by Allah's well- not to do any of them again.
I was also blessed by spending Ramadan in UAE, so i took this as a chance to change and -also- wrote a list of intentions that i wanted to have in that visit, wanted Allaah to bless me with, and things i wanted Allaah to help me with.
Ofcourse through Ramdan and after the 5atma I used to read both of them espicially my Intentions list, as i wrote them in a form of du3aa3, i was asking Allaah for them. And my Tawba list, b4 Ramdan ended, I thought of writing a du3a2 next of each item to help myself quitting them by Allaah's help and du3aa2.
Yesterday, I remembered my lists, read them to evaluate, how far I achieved and really changed..
Here comes the nasty me..
I fisrt read my Tawba list, and saw that i "actually" quited only about 40% of the list..
Then i read my Intentions list, it was in a form of prayers as i mentioned b4, and found that, Allaah sub7anaahu wata3ala is really the greatest!, almost 70% of the listed items already came true!! and i can see now some more are on their way to come true!
I noticed that the things I quitted in my Tawba list, are the things that I listed a prayer next to them or already asked Allaah in my intentions list to help me through!
I remembered the verse : ثم تاب عليهم ليتوبوا إن الله هو التواب الرحيم
Al7amdulillaaah indeed, thanking is never enough!!
Allaah always gives us, and see how we are treating him! Nasty we are!
For Allaah's sake!, i really donno how am I ever going to thank Allaah for this Karam!! I donno how am I gonna meet him in the day of judgement with this nasty me!! el wa7ed maksooooof mn nafsoo awiiiiiii :(
May Allaah forgive all of us, Allahumma i3'fir taqseerana... Fe3lan: وما قدروا الله حق قدره !!!
w rabbena yg3alko mn el tayyebeeen :)
Salaaam
First i want u to know that "me" in the title does not refer to me myself, but it is smthn that me, u and all of us may tell ourselves.
It is a great moment when you say: "Oh my God, How nasty i am!!". Am i saying "great"?!!, oh yes! :).. because it's when u see how small u are and how great Allah is, how merciful, generous, and kind.
Let me tell u a little story. Before this Ramdan, i decided to make Tawba, as most of you did, I wrote a Tawba list, listed the bad things i wanted to quit and decided -by Allah's well- not to do any of them again.
I was also blessed by spending Ramadan in UAE, so i took this as a chance to change and -also- wrote a list of intentions that i wanted to have in that visit, wanted Allaah to bless me with, and things i wanted Allaah to help me with.
Ofcourse through Ramdan and after the 5atma I used to read both of them espicially my Intentions list, as i wrote them in a form of du3aa3, i was asking Allaah for them. And my Tawba list, b4 Ramdan ended, I thought of writing a du3a2 next of each item to help myself quitting them by Allaah's help and du3aa2.
Yesterday, I remembered my lists, read them to evaluate, how far I achieved and really changed..
Here comes the nasty me..
I fisrt read my Tawba list, and saw that i "actually" quited only about 40% of the list..
Then i read my Intentions list, it was in a form of prayers as i mentioned b4, and found that, Allaah sub7anaahu wata3ala is really the greatest!, almost 70% of the listed items already came true!! and i can see now some more are on their way to come true!
I noticed that the things I quitted in my Tawba list, are the things that I listed a prayer next to them or already asked Allaah in my intentions list to help me through!
I remembered the verse : ثم تاب عليهم ليتوبوا إن الله هو التواب الرحيم
Al7amdulillaaah indeed, thanking is never enough!!
Allaah always gives us, and see how we are treating him! Nasty we are!
إنى والإنس والجن في نبأ عظيم، أخلُق ويُعبد غيري، أرزق ويشكر سواي، خيري إلى العباد نازل وشرهم إليّ صاعد، أتودد إليهم بالنعم وأنا الغني عنهم، ويتبغضون إليّ بالمعاصي وهم أفقر ما يكونون إليّ، أهل ذكري أهل مجالستي، من أراد أن يجالسني فليذكرني، أهل طاعتي أهل محبتي، أهل معصيتي لا أُقنِّطهم من رحمتي، إن تابوا إليّ فأنا حبيبهم، وإن أبوا فأنا طبيبهم، أبتليهم بالمصائب لأطهرهم من المعايب، من أتاني منهم تائباً تلقيته من بعيد، ومن أعرض عني ناديته من قريب، أقول له: أين تذهب ألك رب سواي؟ الحسنة عندي بعشرة أمثالها وأزيد، والسيئة عندي بمثلها وأعفو، وعزتي وجلالي لو استغفروني منها لغفرتها لهم
For Allaah's sake!, i really donno how am I ever going to thank Allaah for this Karam!! I donno how am I gonna meet him in the day of judgement with this nasty me!! el wa7ed maksooooof mn nafsoo awiiiiiii :(
May Allaah forgive all of us, Allahumma i3'fir taqseerana... Fe3lan: وما قدروا الله حق قدره !!!
w rabbena yg3alko mn el tayyebeeen :)
Salaaam
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
(3) في رعاية الله
assalamu 3alikom..
I'm just going on telling u stuff that i feel that Allaah is tellig me: "I'm here, next to you.. dont worry"..
Now,i'm in UAE, alone with my father, and i'm seeking a job, applied almost every where online, but no one replied..
i'm here alone.. my father is with me yes, but i didnt contact any of my friends, didnt talk to them, not seeing anyone, not going anywhere except for the hospital and related places... i dont watch TV at ALL, i dont talk on phone, nthn...... just me, dad and the house work..
Al7amdulillaaah, i'm not complaining at all, i'm just giving u a picture in order to let u see what i'll say as i saw it..
Then one day, i was in the car with dady, then i thought like: "y dont i pray that i work here!", cz i only say ya rabb lw feeh 5eer, and i pray isti5ara for working here... but i never said: "ya rabb ashta3'al henaa".. i wondered y!.. maybe i just want to be satisfied, so i'm not asking Allaah for a particular thing, and that way i'm totally leaving it for the isti5ara result and Allaah's well..
but that day i thought, i will say it as: ya rabb ashta3'al hena, ya rabb 2ala2y sho3'l hena.. and i thought that this doesnot contradict with my belief that Allaah will do me the best wether in Egypt or UAE..
The next day, i recieved a phone call on my mobile. Usually the numbers that call me here are from egypt, but this one was from UAE.. and i didnt give any of my UAE friends my number, i didnt tell them i'm here till now.. even when i apply online for a job, i write my dad's number not mine... i was wondering who could this be!
It was Rabab, a friend of mine from the clg, the same department of mine too, she came to UAE, her family is here, and she is looking for a job too!.. i never ever expevted such a call at all!!
Rabab spoke about working together, she mentioned that her sister can contact some ppl and look for a job for both of us not only her, we agreed on meeting soon and hoped we get the chance to work to gether...
I cant tell u how happy i was with that phone call..
1) a friend is there!! a nice one too.. sm1 i can talk to and say rubbish :P, away of my daily activities i do here.
2) Rabab lives two blocks away from mine!
3) Allaah sent me Rabab to tell me: I'm here, u r not alone, i feel u and i sent u some one to make u smile :)... Noha, i know u searched for a job a lot, i know that u want to work here, and u did all what u can do, leave it to me, i can get u a job in another way, a way that u never thought of!! Rabab's sister!.. ya Allaaaah, i really never expected that.. i thought of it the traditional way, i apply online and one of the companies reply to me and here i go!.. sub7ana Allaaah
u know, no matter how this will end like, whether Rabab's sister finds me a job or not, whether i stay here or go back to Egypt, i'm really satisfied, pleased with Allaah and love him soooo much..
I loved the way he told me: i'm here ya Noha, dont worry like that!... i really felt that he - sub7anahu wata3ala- "by-tabtab 3alayyaa" and his "tabtaba" is full of love, compassion, mercy and tenderness..
I had the same feeling i told u about, i felt so happy, wanted to kiss the ground and hug anything around.. i made sujood shokr and thanked Allaah for making me feel that i'm not alone!
and as i told dad, even if i didnt have a job here, it's very enough for me that Allah makes me feel that i'm never alone, and will let me leave, if i left, will all the satisfaction that i may ever want..
al7amdulillaaaahi rabbel 3alameeen
salaaaaaam
I'm just going on telling u stuff that i feel that Allaah is tellig me: "I'm here, next to you.. dont worry"..
Now,i'm in UAE, alone with my father, and i'm seeking a job, applied almost every where online, but no one replied..
i'm here alone.. my father is with me yes, but i didnt contact any of my friends, didnt talk to them, not seeing anyone, not going anywhere except for the hospital and related places... i dont watch TV at ALL, i dont talk on phone, nthn...... just me, dad and the house work..
Al7amdulillaaah, i'm not complaining at all, i'm just giving u a picture in order to let u see what i'll say as i saw it..
Then one day, i was in the car with dady, then i thought like: "y dont i pray that i work here!", cz i only say ya rabb lw feeh 5eer, and i pray isti5ara for working here... but i never said: "ya rabb ashta3'al henaa".. i wondered y!.. maybe i just want to be satisfied, so i'm not asking Allaah for a particular thing, and that way i'm totally leaving it for the isti5ara result and Allaah's well..
but that day i thought, i will say it as: ya rabb ashta3'al hena, ya rabb 2ala2y sho3'l hena.. and i thought that this doesnot contradict with my belief that Allaah will do me the best wether in Egypt or UAE..
The next day, i recieved a phone call on my mobile. Usually the numbers that call me here are from egypt, but this one was from UAE.. and i didnt give any of my UAE friends my number, i didnt tell them i'm here till now.. even when i apply online for a job, i write my dad's number not mine... i was wondering who could this be!
It was Rabab, a friend of mine from the clg, the same department of mine too, she came to UAE, her family is here, and she is looking for a job too!.. i never ever expevted such a call at all!!
Rabab spoke about working together, she mentioned that her sister can contact some ppl and look for a job for both of us not only her, we agreed on meeting soon and hoped we get the chance to work to gether...
I cant tell u how happy i was with that phone call..
1) a friend is there!! a nice one too.. sm1 i can talk to and say rubbish :P, away of my daily activities i do here.
2) Rabab lives two blocks away from mine!
3) Allaah sent me Rabab to tell me: I'm here, u r not alone, i feel u and i sent u some one to make u smile :)... Noha, i know u searched for a job a lot, i know that u want to work here, and u did all what u can do, leave it to me, i can get u a job in another way, a way that u never thought of!! Rabab's sister!.. ya Allaaaah, i really never expected that.. i thought of it the traditional way, i apply online and one of the companies reply to me and here i go!.. sub7ana Allaaah
u know, no matter how this will end like, whether Rabab's sister finds me a job or not, whether i stay here or go back to Egypt, i'm really satisfied, pleased with Allaah and love him soooo much..
I loved the way he told me: i'm here ya Noha, dont worry like that!... i really felt that he - sub7anahu wata3ala- "by-tabtab 3alayyaa" and his "tabtaba" is full of love, compassion, mercy and tenderness..
I had the same feeling i told u about, i felt so happy, wanted to kiss the ground and hug anything around.. i made sujood shokr and thanked Allaah for making me feel that i'm not alone!
and as i told dad, even if i didnt have a job here, it's very enough for me that Allah makes me feel that i'm never alone, and will let me leave, if i left, will all the satisfaction that i may ever want..
al7amdulillaaaahi rabbel 3alameeen
salaaaaaam
Saturday, September 13, 2008
(2) في رعاية الله
welcome again :)
now i'm going on telling u how i feel "re3ayat" Allaah, or ma3eyyat Allaah, ad took my trip to KSA as an example.. cz it happens a lot wal7amdulillaah :)
In my six hours transit i stayed at the airport mousque, where a six years old Bangaly girl "Afraa" asked me what's my name, then we became friends, me, her and her little sister "Arwa".. they are Muslims and live in London.. for some time, this girl kept talking about islam and her teacher and prohet Muhammad pbuh and Mousa pbuh and i thought like: "al7amdulillaah that Allaah sent me sm1 to have a conversation of which i can gain 7asanaat, i really dont know what were i going to do in those six hours".. then she left me to sleep a bit, i had a headache.. i didnt feel like eating the snacks i got with me, i was all alone, in a place that i dont know.. u just dont feel like eating, i didnt even feel like asking about the transit free meals... so, i tried to sleep. after some minutes i woke up on Afraa's voice saying:"Noha, wake up, i brought u food :)" ... i was : :, speachless, i cant describe how i felt then, looking at this tiny little girl, carrying the tray, heading towards me, and saying i brought u food!, oh Allaah, i felt sub7ana Allaaah, see in whom he sent me my rezq... i was thrilled in that moment, i kept thanking her a lot, and asked: how much did u pay for that?, she said it's free.. and she left me to eat.. i was hungry, didnt want to eat but hungry, i ate not cz i wanted to eat, but bcz i felt it's a way of thanking Allaah for it, is to take what he sent to me "min 3'ayri 7awlin lee wala qowwah".. at the moment i started eating, tears dropped from my eyes, i felt the feeling i spoke previously about, i felt really like crying, i made sujoud shokr, and ate with eyes full of tears, with the altimate gratitude to Allaah for this transit experience :)
TBC :)
salaam for now
now i'm going on telling u how i feel "re3ayat" Allaah, or ma3eyyat Allaah, ad took my trip to KSA as an example.. cz it happens a lot wal7amdulillaah :)
In my six hours transit i stayed at the airport mousque, where a six years old Bangaly girl "Afraa" asked me what's my name, then we became friends, me, her and her little sister "Arwa".. they are Muslims and live in London.. for some time, this girl kept talking about islam and her teacher and prohet Muhammad pbuh and Mousa pbuh and i thought like: "al7amdulillaah that Allaah sent me sm1 to have a conversation of which i can gain 7asanaat, i really dont know what were i going to do in those six hours".. then she left me to sleep a bit, i had a headache.. i didnt feel like eating the snacks i got with me, i was all alone, in a place that i dont know.. u just dont feel like eating, i didnt even feel like asking about the transit free meals... so, i tried to sleep. after some minutes i woke up on Afraa's voice saying:"Noha, wake up, i brought u food :)" ... i was : :, speachless, i cant describe how i felt then, looking at this tiny little girl, carrying the tray, heading towards me, and saying i brought u food!, oh Allaah, i felt sub7ana Allaaah, see in whom he sent me my rezq... i was thrilled in that moment, i kept thanking her a lot, and asked: how much did u pay for that?, she said it's free.. and she left me to eat.. i was hungry, didnt want to eat but hungry, i ate not cz i wanted to eat, but bcz i felt it's a way of thanking Allaah for it, is to take what he sent to me "min 3'ayri 7awlin lee wala qowwah".. at the moment i started eating, tears dropped from my eyes, i felt the feeling i spoke previously about, i felt really like crying, i made sujoud shokr, and ate with eyes full of tears, with the altimate gratitude to Allaah for this transit experience :)
TBC :)
salaam for now
Friday, September 12, 2008
في رعاية الله
assalamu 3alikom,
"Ma3eyyat Allaah", yaaaaaaaaaah, how touching!, it's a priceless feeling when u feel that Allaah is taking care of u, protecting u, and sending ppl and making causes just to take care of u..
It makes me feel sooo happy for a short while, then suddenly a strong desire to cry, kiss the ground, hug anything around me, and tell Allaaah: "yaaah ya rabby, ana ba7ebbaak awii"..
they are simple things, very simple, but it is how u see them, u may see them as an original event or result for smth, or see that Allaah made all the surroundings happen only to make these little things for u..
I had a transit in KSA for 9 hours!!, that was a very ling time, my family took me to "Metro" b4 heading to the airport and kept convicing me to buy some snacks to eat in KSA, i wasnt that keen about it..
My flight took off from Egypt 3 hours late than it's scheduled time, i thought: "al7amdulillaah, waiting in my country in much better than waiting in a place i donno, now my transit became 6 hours, thank u Allaah"..
My seat wasnt a window seat, i love window seats.. but i said 5eer ya3ny, al7amdulillaah, then sm1 came and said: "excuse me madam can u sit over there cz there is a family who want to sit together?" and over there was a window seat :)
enough for today :)
see u in part two,
fe Aman Allaah :)
"Ma3eyyat Allaah", yaaaaaaaaaah, how touching!, it's a priceless feeling when u feel that Allaah is taking care of u, protecting u, and sending ppl and making causes just to take care of u..
It makes me feel sooo happy for a short while, then suddenly a strong desire to cry, kiss the ground, hug anything around me, and tell Allaaah: "yaaah ya rabby, ana ba7ebbaak awii"..
they are simple things, very simple, but it is how u see them, u may see them as an original event or result for smth, or see that Allaah made all the surroundings happen only to make these little things for u..
I had a transit in KSA for 9 hours!!, that was a very ling time, my family took me to "Metro" b4 heading to the airport and kept convicing me to buy some snacks to eat in KSA, i wasnt that keen about it..
My flight took off from Egypt 3 hours late than it's scheduled time, i thought: "al7amdulillaah, waiting in my country in much better than waiting in a place i donno, now my transit became 6 hours, thank u Allaah"..
My seat wasnt a window seat, i love window seats.. but i said 5eer ya3ny, al7amdulillaah, then sm1 came and said: "excuse me madam can u sit over there cz there is a family who want to sit together?" and over there was a window seat :)
enough for today :)
see u in part two,
fe Aman Allaah :)
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